#alliences

it’s marshclan guys!, they’re my favorite clan, please send an ask if you want to see fleshed out versions of any of these guys. the concept idea goes to @slugswarriorsclans , so thank you to them for this amazing idea!

clan notes below cut

I am so fucking done with the Kazon. I wish… I wish there was something we could do to get them off our backs, short of just turning Voyager over to them. Because at this point I don’t think they would take anything less. Their attack this week killed one of B’Elanna’s friends, Kurt Bendera. She took it pretty hard. I didn’t know him very well, but she was close with him back in Maquis she said. She’s been kind of moping around… and short tempered. But I’ve gotten used to her snapping at me.

I wish there was something I could do to make her feel better. But it’s hard when someone close to you dies. Especially when they are your age or in your position or… or you feel like it was your job to protect them. I don’t really know what to do. I know my mom would say the proper thing to do is send a condolence card. I don’t quite know what B’Elanna would do with that. I guess all I can do is be there if she wants to talk.

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Every time someone close to me dies, it just reminds me of how getting attached to people isn’t worth it. A few weeks ago it was Chakotay I thought I lost… and today it is Kurt. It just reminds me how impermanent this all is. How in the end everyone will eventually leave you. It so… contradictory. I want friends, I want people to care about me… but I don’t want to get too close so it doesn’t hurt as much when they leave.

I’ll miss Kurt a lot. He was a good friend, always willing to help out. He would put up with my yelling. But in the end we were not super close.

I know that I will never see ‘home’ again… but I don’t think about it that much. But when someone dies… it just brings it back into focus that it might be me next. Or someone I love.

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