#alison smith

Alison sat on the couch crying. Maybe she hadn’t exactly wanted this baby but this wasn’t what she wanted either. She was working on her latest job designing some icons for an upcoming video game when she felt it. It just felt like normal menstrual cramps at first but the pain just got worse and worse when the bleeding started Alison knew she needed to get to a doctor. She hoped and prayed to anyone who might be listening that the baby would be ok but her fears were confirmed. 

“Ali, are you OK?” Colin asked finding his sister laying on the couch when he got home from work. 

“The baby’s gone” Alison whispered to her younger brother. 

“What do you mean the baby’s gone? Did you...” Colin said watching his sister. He highly doubted she would get an abortion without talking to him first but maybe she did. Maybe he made her feel alone and like she couldn’t talk to him. 

Alison started to cry again bringing Colin’s attention away from his racing thoughts and back to his sister as she slowly shook her head. “I started having cramps,” she said between sobs “and then the blood started” 

“Ali...” Colin said scooping the older girl into his arms “I’m so sorry. Have you been alone all day?” 

“No I called mom when I got home from the doctor. She left about 10 minutes ago when I told her you’d be home soon and I wanted to be alone...I didn’t want the baby...  I shouldn’t be this upset...”  Ali said reaching up to wipe away her tears. 

“You can be upset, I know you hadn’t decided what you wanted to do yet... but it sucks that life made the choice for you,” Colin said.  

“Hey, are you OK?” Colin said as his sister came out of the bathroom. 

“Yea, I’m fine,” Alison said with a smile. 

“Don’t lie to me” Colin said “I know you better than that” 

Alison took a deep breath to try and steady her nerves. Colin was her brother and her best friend. If she couldn’t talk to him she couldn’t talk to anyone. 

“I’m pregnant” she whispered not meeting his eyes. 

“What?” Colin asked “Who's the father? I didn’t even know you were sleeping with anyone since.... oh...” 

“It’s Caden’s I haven’t slept with any else recently... We’re always so careful... I just don’t...” Alison said starting to cry. 

“Shhh” Colin said pulling his older sister to him “It’s going to be OK, You don’t have to come tonight if you don’t want to.” 

“What! No! This is your night to celebrate that big modeling contract you got! I’m going to the party tonight. I’ll be Ok if anything it will be a good distraction for awhile”  Alison said 

It’s going to be negative Alison told herself You’re being completely ridiculous and this all just a waste of money and time. She was just about to throw the test into the garbage can when she saw the word start to appear in the window.

Pregnant. 

This couldn’t be real. This couldn’t be happening. They had been so careful. It wasn’t like this was their first go-round they had been doing this off and on since college. 

Alison heard a knock on her bathroom door pulling her from her thoughts. 

“Ali come on we have to get going or we’ll be late” Colin called from the other side of the door.