#alien's fic

hey thanks so much for the ask!! i am. so so so sorry it's taken me a While to answer it. i really meant to try to get to it the day you sent it in, but then i got busy with other things, and then i wanted to spend some time thinking about the headcanons aspect, so. it took me a minute. but know that i really loved receiving this ask, and i'm so glad to hear that you love the fic collection and the genderqueer!sara ones I've written (and know that there will be a couple more coming up in the near future!)!

i don't necessarily have like. a ton of Specific genderqueer!sara headcanons tbh, but i'll still put a few, or as many as I can think of, down a little bit further on this ask, and I hope you enjoy them!

as for genderqueer/genderfluid!ava, I haven't really thought about that at all? it's not something that i... necessarily see, personally i guess? i can't exactly say how likely it would be for me to write genderqueer/genderfluid!ava, but i wouldn't entirely take it off the table, either. there's always a chance it could happen, and i'm not opposed to the idea or anything, it's just. not something I've thought of before. usually if i'm headcanoning ava as not cis, then i'm thinking of her as a trans woman, but like I said, genderqueer/genderfluid!ava is a cool idea too, and i am. kind of able to see it a Little bit more now that it's been put out there!

now, for Genderqueer!Sara Headcanons:

she still largely goes by she/her pronouns, because it's never been something that was ever Uncomfy for her, and her genderqueerness/fluidity has always largely been based in the expression/presentation aspects, and just a general internal sense of queerness and fluidity as a whole. despite that, she's also very comfortable with they/them pronouns if people ever decide to use them for her, because while she's never been uncomfortable with she/her, she Does appreciate the extra freedom and fluidity with they/them pronouns

somedays, being comfortable and feeling like herself means stepping into all the more typically feminine aspects. she feels confident and sexy and badass in a dress and heels. she wears her hair down and puts on makeup, however much or little, and she feels Unstoppable

and then other days, its not that at all. sometimes even just the idea of that is enough to make her squirm a little bit, because it feels so foreign and uncomfortable and just. not her at all. most of the time, on those days, she wears her hair up, because the feeling of it on her neck sends her spinning. she's in pants and muscle tees or button-ups and blazers or anything else that makes her feel like this. this is me. suit and tie if she needs to be really formal. combat boots over anything else because honestly, combat boots just have the ability to make her feel like herself no matter what kind of day it is, and she can make them look killer with anything

she never really puts a label on it. she's aware of genderqueer and genderfluid and various other terms, and she's sure one or more of them would probably fit if she decided to look into it, but more often than not she finds she doesn't really Need a definitive name for it. she's fine just existing the way that she is and the way that she always has. she's content with that, and the people that matter to her understand and accept it without question or much explanation because its just Who She Is, and the ones she loves also love her, all of her, simply because she is who she is. it fills her with a sense of peace and contentment and belonging more than anything else ever could.

i feel like sara would end up in charlie's room on various occasions, just. talking about it. i always always Always headcanon charlie as nonbinary/genderfluid and just generally very open and loud about it, and sara is just like. Respect. y'know? so sometimes she just wants to talk about it with someone who just gets it so explicitly and intrinsically, and that someone is charlie for sure. they've had many conversations about what its like to be a shapeshifter and how that also must be so nice in terms of gender expression and just. presentation in general. sometimes sara wishes she could experience it too. like for the most part she's generally really comfortable with herself and with her body, and she's fought hard to get to a place like that, but there will always be that little part of her in the back somewhere that wonders what it must be like to be able to change anything on a whim and change it back just as much on a whim

it doesn't happen often, especially not anymore, but sometimes sara still gets flashes of insecurity about the whole thing, and she kind of has a habit of asking ava if its all okay, this whole gender thing, and ava is always so quick to reassure her that its Perfectly okay, that ava only ever wants her to be comfortable and that she should do and wear and be whatever that is at any given moment (and, of course, that ava wholeheartedly thinks sara looks good in pretty Anything because she's just that in love with her)

i'm scared of posting this but i gotta rip the bandaid off

i may think i suck at writing but i still wrote!! rahhh!!!!