#alexithymic

PT: Alexithyvesil /end PT

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Alexithyvesil: a vesility term in which many or all parts of one’s identity are affected by alexithymia. Alexithymia is a neuropsychological phenomenon characterized by significant challenges in recognizing, sourcing, and describing one's emotions.

Three flags, using all the different Alexithymia flags (exept @themogaidragon one because it's too bright, outch!) so everyone can use the one they prefer! Bases used in order left to right (let xem know wanne be untagged):

@beyond-mogai-pride-flags alexithymia flag (link).

@dsbmgenric alexithymia flag (link).

@thechroniclegames alexithymia flag (link).

alexithymia brain: static

me: what?

alexithymia brain: you feel the way radio static sounds

me: well that's extremely fucking unhelpful

normal: feeling emotionally numb after a stressful event

not normal: feeling emotionally numb is your standard way of being

normal: experiencing confusion around your emotions when overwhelmed, but generally being able to identify what you’re feeling

not normal: not being able to break your emotions apart at all, or only being able to identify the difference between feeling “bad” or feeling “good”

normal: occasionally having a gap between your cognitive processing of emotions and the emotions themselves (e.g head vs heart)

not normal: feeling like you only have “head” emotions, or feeling like your emotions are always muddled

normal: feeling emotions in both your mind and in your body, without having to think about it

not normal: only knowing what you’re feeling after consciously analysing what your body is doing (e.g. “oh my stomach feels weird. this must be anxiety?”)

normal: partially using emotions to make decisions, and then being able to identify what emotions led to that decision

not normal: going entirely off “gut instinct” without fully understanding why you’ve made that decision (e.g. “I don’t know what I want to do, I’ll just do what has the vibes”)

And PLENTY of people say "What if its related". So, What if?

Would that really matter? Would that change anything?

It's my brain, it's my life, it's my experience. It's something that can't be changed, AND that doesn't need to. Something that will be there until I die.

So, to the people that say things such as "Are you sure you're not just confused?" or "That must be a symptom of..." so what if it was?

do any of yall also get this thing where its like. you start thinking about or mentally addressing the Bad Thing—the thing(s) youve been avoiding bc emotions are confusing and dont feel like anything other than a Bad Time—and its like. instead of feeling any sort of feelings (which is a given) you just kinda collapse? like your life force is being super rapidly drained and then suddenly within 4 seconds tops you have literally no energy whatsoever and just fully collapse mentally and physically.