#alexcolle

Oh how afraid I am. Afraid of standing still forever With no fight and no choice.  Oh how afraid I am My ambitious dreams cannot fight my familiar vision, And I am standing on the road most traveled, Watching enviously the people who cartwheel down different, more interesting roads.

Oh God, how afraid I am. But today will be the blessful, luminous day that my eyes will finally open.

Today will be the day that I will discover that I have been standing my whole life on this road,

what is your earliest memory? I may have been two or three in this memory. I remember using a lemon squeezer to make lemon juice with my babysitter. My mom was there watching, possibly recording it. Unfortunately, I do not remember the taste of the lemon juice. I’m sure it was awesome, though.

what is your favourite memory of 2012? During the summer, I had been part of Soulpepper Theatre’s Youth Mentorship Program. We explored and created various forms of art, and presented what we created in a showcase by the end of the program. I was backstage during one of the performances, by myself. A certain tune came on that was part of our performance; I always found comfort in this tune. I lay my back against the wall of the backstage and thought to myself, “I love this. I love performing.” At this moment, I discovered my love for theatre.

what do you dream of? I dream of people in my life. These people do and say strange things in my dreams, but they don’t seem very strange while they are happening. Sometimes, I’ll wake up and I’ll smile to what I dreamt; these dreams feature someone I loved very dearly. Sometimes, I’ll wake up and feel longing; these dreams feature a good time with people I miss very dearly. I suppose those are considered nightmares.

what do you see at night? The day I am about to fall asleep from.

what is your favourite song? Rebellion by Arcade Fire. Every time you close your eyes…Lies! Lies!

how do you feel about your hair? Nothing too special about the hair on my head. The hair on my face, however….

what's your favourite publication (magazine, journal, etc)? Leonard Maltin’s Movie Guide. I’m fucking lame, I know.

which artist/institution of art/collect of artists has affected your life this year? The eleven young artists of Soulpepper Theatre’s Youth Mentorship Program and our two lovely facilitators, Paula and Christian (Chrishylipps). We explored. We created. We experienced. I love those guys.

I’d be kicking myself if I also didn’t mention Arcade Fire. I want to do badass things whenever I listen to them. That has gotten me in some pretty amazing situations. I totally recommend them.

what is your favourite novel of 2012? The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald. 

I am not just any other person