#aldn

i know i got my way but im still bitter

i watched some people passin' by

i wonder if they hate me when i look 'em in the eyes

run my fingers through your hair

just so you know that i care

i know this is the worst of me

It’s 7:53am on my day off and here I am, waking and whining.

The birds outside my window are making themselves heard ahead of the storm.

Across town my buddy sits red eyed watching tv.

Across the states a girl furiously scribbles her focused thoughts on page and paper.

I’m lying here pondering my attention span, my vulnerability to the endless traps of modernity.

You knew what leaving would do to me. You knew what aloneness would do to you,

So you never had it.

You’ve couched yourselves in others, made others dependent on your love, propped up another man’s wellbeing to steady your own,

Knowing how we’d all wash out.

And you’ll wake up today and do it again,

Peering at me through the glass like I’m reality tv,

A worn out movie, a familiar distraction easily picked up and

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