#akooo

05 February 2026

Byaheng 8:30pm sa barkong MV Peñafrancia V.. ngayon lang ulit ako makakauwi ng Marinduque. Kami lang ni Ate. 

Dapat talaga bukas pa pero for some circumstances, mas pinili kong bakit hindi pa ngayon kung pwede naman.

Nakaplano na ito last week pa kasi naka schedule talaga si Ate ng punta ng Lucena lang..  pero naisip kong sumama kasi para makapasyal lang din, then sabi ko bakit hindi kami dumiretso ng Marinduque para makita ko sina Mama.. ngayon lang ulit ako uuwi after I think 2 years ago, kasama ko pa mga bulilits that time.

Mas ginusto kong ako lang.. kasi mas gusto kong magfocus sa kanila

Kahapon bago ako pumasok ng work. Napapaisip ako.. excited ako umuwi at the same time naiiyak ako, siguro kasi namimiss ko na sila pero ang nasa isip ko talaga that time.. makikita ko sila Mama at Papa.. makikita ko na naman na tumatanda na talaga sila.. kita na sa facial features at physical apperance pero malakas pa. Doon ako naiiyak.. may work naman ako, enough yung pera para makabisita, kaya namang magleave pero bakit parang ang hirap sa aking bigyan sila ng time. Dito ko na realize na dapat mas umuwi ako.. alam ko naman yung endgame at yun yung kinalulungkot ko. Kasi malayo sila sa akin.. mali nga yung mga desisyon na sila pa yung bibisita sa amin. Kami yung mas malakas, kami yung mas may kaya.. dapat kami yung gumawa ng paraan para magkita ulit kami.

Tama sila. Love them most habang nandyan pa. Kaya naman talaga.. though may mga sarili tayong struggles sa buhay, huwag parin natin silang pabayaan.. mabilis lang ang mga araw at panahon. Dapat sinusulit palagi ang mga oras na kasama sila.

Its been awhile. As usual, many things happened. But from all of those moments, I would say.. I am still good.

Another blessings and achievement to have another baby, a second baby if I haven't mentioned him. Yes, another lil boy. Well, he is one this year. Life is still good.

We had struggles financially but God never fails. He always provides.

Then things happened. Good things actually.

Hubby have reached his dream to have a stable job. He bought a new motorcycle, we bought a car. And now, I bought my laptop which I am now using (yeay me!) Actually, I am very thankful and always grateful for having theses now.

All I can say is little by little we will make our dreams come true, just have faith and always trust God.

Sometimes I think that I self-diagnosed myself with anxiety. Sometimes depression. But I know that I always overthink other things.

I hate myself when a situation will just comes in my mind, and all the scenarios will just repeat again and again. That comes to the point of thinking the what ifs. Maybe I will say traumatic experience because it drains me mentally and emotionally. But I do know that I need something with my spiritual aspect. I always get come to the reality that I need to be strong after all those struggles coz I know I'm not alone in every fight.

I do pray and hope that those traumatic experience that haunts me will be done and never comes back.

Hey My Love,

This very moment that I decided to give words to my feelings, my heart is overflowing with the joy and love you make me feel with your presence. You are such an angel in my life, and I count myself as lucky and blessed to have you as my wife.

Since the time you came into my life, I have grown to love you so much that I find myself anxious in your absence and constantly looking forward to seeing you each day.

I am in awe of your beauty, intelligence, and confidence. Your love and kindness inspire me to become a better person each day. Your presence has such a positive and calming effect on my heart and soul that I cannot express it in words.

Today, I want you to know that you are the most important person in my life, and you mean the world to me. I may not show my love to you every day, but always remember that my feelings towards you will never change. I love you so much.