#aidorulife

I will do everything it takes to get an AP lucky pack this year I swear on all my brand

I played around and updated my theme a bit tell me what you think!!

Off go north west fan fest today! Come see me and VAN48 perform at the opening ceremonies today and at the maid cafe on Sunday!!

So my dinner dance is today (prom for my friends down below) and it's raining right now, I screwed up my nails already, my shoes aren't broken in, a million other things happened yesterday and this past week like too many to list, I'm scared and upset and I feel like everything is going wrong so far. I know I should be thankful I even get a dinner dance and there's people in the world right now that have it so much worse but I can't help feeling discouraged about everything. Someone send me pictures of cute anime girls of something because I need some cheering up.

Flight for France leaves at 10 am tomorrow but I have to be there at 6 yippee and I'm still writing essays for scholarship stuff woohoo!!

So I'm taking my driver's test for the second time tomorrow because I failed back in December and I am a nervous wreck. My anxiety levels haven't been this high since last year and I've been panicking all day. I've reviewed what I did wrong from last time had 4 hours in the past 2 weeks practicing with my instructor and driving a couple hours a week with my parents and I'm watching tip videos on the ICBC website and redoing practice tests on signs and stuff and everyone says I'm ready and 98% chance I will pass but I am still anxious and doubting myself. I get so scared behind the wheel even though I know what to do I just keep thinking about how you can potentially kill someone with this machine and that terrifies me. I get impatient really easily and sometimes I just maneuver so fast that I end up doing it wrong. The car battery died the other day too so that stresses me out- it's fine now but who knows what could happen during the test. I just want to be able to drive so badly like I want it more than anything and I feel pressure from my parents and sister and friends and everyone because things would be a lot easier if I could just drive myself places instead of having to rely on others but I feel like I just can't handle everything right now. Sorry it's just really I had to get that off my chest I feel a bit better now that I've let things out. I mean I was set up to fail last test (got lost on the way there, took the test in an unfamiliar area an hour away where id never even been, forgot my own learner's license lol) and I can now learn from mistakes from the first time but you know. Jitters and all that haha. I just pray that I pass and yeah u w u ;;;;;;