Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
I follow this person who posts pictures of their life. Just having a party with people, making cosplays, renovating their house, eating food with their husband.
They keep saying never kill yourself, it gets better.
But whenever I see their posts I feel angry and worthless and bitter. Just because they got lucky and everything worked out for them. I'm so jealous.
I keep following them because I tell myself I need to know its possible to have a life but it feels more and more impossible everyday. I just feel sad and angry when I see their posts.
Its even worse when I see other people casually living my greatest fantasy, and theyre my age or younger. And I know their lives aren't perfect, that they have harships and hurts and struggle like everyone else. And yet. Even with all their problems, their lives are still so wonderful and dreamlike to me. Im bitter, I hate that about myself but its true.
Okay so I'm always team "unfollow people whose content makes you hate yourself". Like no matter what this person's content aims to do or what you were hoping it might do for you it clearly isn't doing any of that in practice, so I vote press that unfollow button and follow people whose content isn't triggering
In addition to everything else that gets talked about regularly, I hate variants because they clog up sites like genius lyrics where I'm digging for interesting lyrics to share and web weave. And they also clog up an artist's page when released for streaming and as someone who loves to make playlists, it's so annoying to find and add things
i've been putting this off for a while, because i kept hoping things would get better or easier or not so stupidly overwhelming. but they haven't. so, i want to take the time now to apologize profusely for the unanswered messages and delay in all things, before i let it go on longer. i tell myself i'll answer something in a minute or tomorrow and then days turn into weeks and i feel really guilty and horrible for letting things "get out of hand", which doesn't help answering feel any less overwhelming? and, i feel like its infinitely stupid, communicating isn't hard?? typing a message out takes five seconds or five minutes, but i'm just...stuck. and while stuck, i start to worry that people will begin moving on, soft-blocking, forgetting or not caring about what we built and what we can continue to build--but i can't force myself to answer or to write, i start to avoid it, to create my own self-fulfilling prophecy. i just need some "official" time away.
to be honest, i don't feel that i've had any time to do anything that i want to do, not write, not read, not sew, not run. by the time all is done for the house and the farm, it's time for bed, then it's time to wake and do everything i need to do before work, then work, then back to taking care of everything else, like a never ending cycle and yet, it feels like i've gotten nothing done there either? i've got another big deadline for work coming up and i'm sure that that is attributing to a lot of the mental strain that is making me feel stuck. i want to be here, i want to write, i want to get back to the threads and friendships with you all, i just might not be able to for a while. or who knows, now that i've finally taken the time to write this, it'll burst the stupor bubble and i'll be back at it again. until then, we'll call this an indefinite semi-hiatus.
again, i'd like to extend my sincerest apologies for the radio silence, for forcing y'all to be patient, for if i've ever made you feel ignored or unwanted, for the messages gathering dust, for the threads stuck on pause, for everything. and i'd like to thank y'all too, for writing with me, for the friendships, for the patience, for making the world not seem so big and scary all the time, for your creativity, for everything--it is a continuous honor to have y'all in my life.
i'll be back soon(ish). when i'm no longer paralyzed beneath the fig tree. xo.
Hi, I'm struggling. Trying to find a job, I've had no luck for a month in doing so which is not a new story for anyone.
My roommate moves out in like a month and is fully starting to just close off on helping me out. I get food stamps in like two weeks, but right now I've got nothing.
Not for groceries, not for bills that are currently paid but will start coming back around again. Got no specific goals or anything, but everything helps. I'm really starting to shut down mentally, I'm trying my best here and it's clearly not good enough. I've got little temp bits that help close some gaps every so often like a volunteer job at the local convention that I'm getting paid for, but things are just not working fully. life for everyone is a little shitty right now, I know. So no pressure at all.
I can't offer anything in return except thank yous and maybe tears, but like I said anything and everything helps:
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
i've never met a fandom as cruel and mean spirited as b*ddies before. insane how someone can rt a fanvid for a ship they despise, make fun of it relentlessly despite op asking them to leave them alone, bully op into going priv, and then treat it like it's some kind of victory. and all the other buddies dgaf or call it out they're just laughing like haha guys you cant take a joke. you people are obsessed with living out your high school bully fantasies and it's disgusting. there is darkness in your souls the likes of which have only ever been found at the bottom of the mariana trench, no light could ever possibly reach the depths at which you have fallen.
