I cleaned my kitchen floor today.

Before I had a small pathway to the sink and the refrigerator. Now I can MOVE.

I followed the guidance of that crisis cleaning mode post I reblogged over the weekend, and I kept the decision to do it today.

I have bad executive dysfunction, and while not officially diagnosed, speaking to my therapist and my psych nurse they both agree that I'm very likely to be AuDHD. I got on medication for the ADHD and after missing a month due to a fuck up on the pharmacy portion not refilling it, I'm back on it and...omg the improvement.

I can focus, I can keep decisions I've made, and am able to complete projects much easier. (See the crochet dolls especially!)

2 words-cranberry juice

You can also use any soda pop, heat 1/2 a cup to dissolve the powder, add 1 1/2 of cold. Anyone else remember white grape/champagne jello? Did it ever work as intended?

You can also make coffee flavor.

There is still a lot of prejudice regarding neurodiversity.

I was a late diagnosis( I mask like a queen), and when I got it, there was so much relief, my oddness had a name, a name I shared with countless others.

For me, being neurodivergent was a gift, I always thought that is was God’s way of making my brain a little more colorful, more conscious; a brain made to notice the little details of his creation, a brain that marvels easily, that lives differently but beautifully.

My ADHD was never a curse for me. It was just another characteristic of who I am.

Now I’m not sure if I disclose it as an apology for my oddness again. A little disclaimer of “ here’s why”

Am I the only one ?

I don’t want to feel like my beautiful gift is something I have to apologize for, but maybe our world is not ready yet to relearn that what makes us different is a strength and not a weakness.

Neurodiversity, before it had a name, was cherished, we where the hunters, the artists, the scientists, the curious, the dreamers, the ones thinking outside the box. We were freer without the label, even if sometimes those labels make us feel like we belong somewhere or to something.

This isn’t an attempt to romanticize it, it’s just saying, the human condition is a lot more fluid and colorful that we’d like to admit.

Yeah, I'm super into certain topics, I read about them and watch documentaries about them and even film my own YouTube shorts about them. But if you ask me for details two days later, I can only give you vague outlines.

It’s not laziness. It’s Executive Dysfunction.

If you’re an adult struggling with ADHD, know that your brain is just wired differently. You don’t need more "discipline," you need better systems that work for you.

Check out this guide for some clarity: