#agentlove

anyway it's always bittersweet to see kinfessions that are years old for your semi-obscure source, no idea if they even have interest in it anymore or still feel the same way, but there's still this, well, kinship bwl. i saw a samantha and i wish i could talk to her, even if just for a passing kin and shared interest she may have had four years ago. if any hypnospace outlaw kins are still around: heya! it's roddy wall! that's me! you guys are awesome! 🐂💕 no hard feelings on the brain frying btw it makes for pretty badass art

YEEEEAAAAAA CHERYL!!!!!!! LET'S GOOO mrs. hamlin im so fucking sorry i thought your husband was gay for five and a half seasons. forgive me .

ANYWAY putting up my clark warding banner again since she's hard to talk about without a looming orbit of spoilers lol

it's a shame cheryl doesnt have a Whole lot of screentime but fortunately i have spent five years latching onto minor yugioh spinoff characters nobody gives a shit about so i am well trained in these rugged lands. what screentime we DO get her is so potent and thats such a testament to how goddamn good this show's writing and character building is, for real. She really has to take the brunt of some of the worst shit Kim has ever done in this entire series and she didnt just survive, she gets to actively press back against it, gets to call her out on the awfulness of it all. My mom learned from going to grief groups that the sort of grief someone who's lost a loved one to suicide goes through is just its own special kind of crushingly painful, and the fact Cheryl just had to go through that for years and didn't break into a million pieces is a testament to how strong she is... her spirit is just absolute titanium, and it's so easy to see what drew Howard to her/what he no doubt admired about her.

It's really interesting to me how she actually has a lot of parallels to Chuck, both of them not just 'people really important to Howard' but also both being victims of just the nastiest, most convoluted gaslighting in their entire show, and them both knowing in their guts that they're right (even though no one will believe them.) I think they maybe got along, in my heart of hearts. I think Cheryl could go toe to toe with Chuck's fussy OCD 2 snippiness easily.

SHE'S JUST SO FUCKING SAD, MAN. GOD FUCKING DAMN. One of my absolute favorite BCS fics I've ever read is about Cheryl [spoilers, of course, for season 6] and I will take any chance to hype it up, it makes her relationship with Howard and the love she has for him feel so fleshed out beyond the stray pieces we got in canon and it's got prime "I genuinely feel this is what happened in postcanon im cosigning this" concepts. WAH. DABS AT MY BIG WET EYES

also bonus but BCSmon AU cheryl is Braixen (Delphox, later) I've decided :3

YEEASSSSSSSS oh i will HAPPILY gush about bridge era ygo.....im actually making my way through Sevens right now!! (im like...22 episodes in, it's been slow going since like november because i keep getting blown up by Vince Gilligan's Wild Ride LMAO)

I am ADORING it so far tho. I don't mind taking it so slow since it's the shortest series and I wanna savor it!! I LOOOVE the cast, theyre so endearing, and the tone is just such a charming level of Very Silly and Shamelessly Ridiculous But Very Earnest in a way I love to bits. I'm excited to watch more, especially having met a lot of the cast in duel links already (Goha siblings gonna hit the Danagon like a ballistic missile I fear.) AND a lot of my friends have Sevens up really high on their ygo series rankings and consider it one of the best so I'm lookin forward to where it's gonna end up on mine :3

I haven't seen Go Rush yet, I'm definitely going to after i get through Sevens, but I've got a bit of exposure to the cast from playing duel links and I LIKE THEM SOOO MUCH TOO HEHEHE. people are so hard on the bridge series and it's like, yeah go rush is kind of a mess but let's not pretend thats some Bridge Era Specific Problem With Yugioh. Lol. Looks Directly At Arc-V. the actual cast of go rush is delightful, Yudias and Zwiijo are both really cool variants of the yutag/rival formula, and ALSO ALL THE DECK ARCHETYPES KICK ASS. THEYRE ALL SO GODDAMN COOL. YUAMU'S COMPUTER DRAGONS

im a valiant yugioh spinoff warrior and im happy to take up the blade to defend the bridge era and gush about it; people get SO fucking nasty about it and it's so..... man, nobody is Making you watch it. I'm sorry the franchise that's meant to sell trading cards to children made a series geared to a younger audience than you. cope. me i'll be over here rocking out with my girl Romin!!!!

Favourite thing about them: For as snarky as his dialogue gets at times, I adore just how much he's motivated by love. The way that he holds Lynn's and Jessica's hands when walking with them, the way he gently rocks the "baby", when he tries to protect Ethan from the truth that his daughter is dead, "find Lynn, nothing matters but Lynn"... he's the very definition of "it ended in tragedy but the love was there". I'm sick.

Least favourite thing about them: His lack of stamina </3 I'm so used to practically speedrunning all of the games I play and I can't do that with Outlast II.

Favourite line: "We're out. I got Jessica out. It was cold but the snow had just started. We'll find a grown up and we'll tell them what happened. We'll be okay. It's not my fault." for the tragedy of it all, and "Oh, fuck me!" for the delivery.

brOTP: I like to imagine that he and Miles were friends before their respective Murkoff Adventures, having exchanged sources and tips for their journalism. He admired Miles' commitment to investigating stories that would've otherwise gone untold, and Miles admired Blake's commitment to the finding out the truth.

OTP: Blake/Lynn. Generic answer? Maybe. But Red Barrels made me care so so much about reuniting them. They balance each other.

nOTP: I don't think I have one? I love Blake/Lynn, post-game Blake/Miles, one-sided Blake/Jessica, and one-sided Blake/Val. Maybe Blake/Waylon, but not in a "I hate it" way, more of a "I just don't see them being interested in each other" way.

Random headcanon: You cannot convince me that this man didn't have an edgy metalhead Hot Topic phase when he reached his teenage years. His childhood username was BlakeAgainstTheMachine! The signs are there!

Unpopular opinion: I think this was a bigger deal when the game first came out but Blake isn't any weaker than Miles or Waylon. People tend to forget that he's just been in a helicopter crash, and is going up against people who've been under the influence of Murkoff's radio waves for decades (which we know cause physical effects since Lynn quite literally dies from it) AND are armed with knives, machetes, flaming arrows, etc. If anything, he's incredibly resilient for taking all of the abuse he suffers over the course of the game and trucking along until the collapse of Temple Gate.

Song I associate with them: "O Light" by Kikuo.

Favourite picture of them: This is such a funny thing to answer with a faceless protagonist. This one from the comics. Why does he have so much hair. He looks like an emo kid.

I just jumped up and down. I like that guy!!! (ask game!)

favorite thing about them

I love his colorful language and insight via his notes. I'M LEARNING MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS ARE ALL HATERS. Did he have to dig into Trager for talking "like a white collar business school douchebag," with "a set of golf clubs in the trunk of his Audi?" No. Did he waste time writing in his notepad about it anyways? Yes.

I also like(?) seeing how he deteriorates overtime. For Trager, Miles says he wants to see him die. And that's post-finger-amputations. By the end of the game, well, he killed Billy himself! Whenever he gets into the buzzing or the noise he hears throughout the facility, how by the end he just wants freedom, death or otherwise...he is just not well. I think that's really cool to experience through the main character, and gives a lot of insight into how the Engine really was affecting so many people.

least favorite thing about them

Probably his design? LOL. It's not BAD, it's very 2013 horror protagonist, which is what he literally is. He's the blueprint. I just think it's a bit bland. He really needed that Walrider glow up.

favorite line(s)

"I've said it before, but fuck this place. I've still got those fingers left."

"Give me a hacksaw and a few hours alone with Dr. Wernicke's corpse. I feel I owe him a debt."