POV you're part of the African diaspora. Since your parent was the first of her siblings to immigrate, you and your siblings are the only ones on her side of the family who can't speak the language competently. You're venting about trying to find resources that'll teach you the language since your mom just can't anymore:
"Why don't you just learn [mutually intelligible more widely spoken dialect] instead??? 😀😀😀"
Because. That's. Not. My. Language.
This is indigemisia and anti-african/afromisia(?)! This rhetoric is pro-colonialism via assimilation and erasure of Indigenous African languages. (Hope I worded this well... I'm eepy.)
Also I hope you can find more resources! I understand how frustrating that must be as someone struggling to learn my tribe's language and Yiddish. (I have cognitive disabilities which make learning, especially learning new languages harder. Learning my tribe's language is even harder due to lack of/little resources & no teacher so I can definitely sympathize with your struggle.)
