#afflaetus

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𝗒𝗈𝗎    𝖺𝗋𝖾    𝖺𝗅𝗈𝗇𝖾    𝗇𝗈𝗐,    𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍    𝗍𝗁𝖾    𝗍𝗐𝗈    𝗈𝖿    𝗒𝗈𝗎.    and    just...    the    fact    that    this    is    happening,    makes    you    feel    as    if    the    world    is    crashing    down    on    you.    everyone    else    is    gone,    ajak    is    going    to    the    domo,    trying    to    see    if    there    can    be    done    for    you    outside    of    erasing    your    memories.    and    the    mental    tiredness    from    battle    is    starting    to    hit    you    now.    the    guilt    just...    settles    in    your    gut,    knowing    that    this    is    your    fault,    knowing    that    losing    your    family    is    your    own    fault.    the    fact    that    your    mind    cannot    handle    memories    is    your    own,    tells    you    everything    you    need    to    know.    you    move    in    the    slab    now,    facing    him,    and    you    know    that    you    do    not    look    like    yourself,    ❝    you    don’t    have    to    do    this,    gilgamesh.    i...    i    can    be    alone.    i’ll    go    into    the    desert,    assure    that    nobody    will    find    me.    you    don’t...    you    don’t    need    to    come    with    me    if    you    don’t    want    to.    ❞

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｡･*･ﾟ☆  time, it is such a strange thing in a life of war and fighting. her heart and head radiate such love and such a want for peace she aches each day that passes. her solace in her marriage is slowly becoming marred with a shift in Anakin’s demeanor as time progresses. He appears the same, his weight and features but she can sense it. She is sure Obi-Wan can as well but has his own confidences in her husband. 

She loves him. To the edges of the galaxy and back. She would not have married him if she did not, and she would not have allowed a breach the the jedi code if she knew it would lead to this but she now fears the core of his destruction is coming from her. Hand raises to her stomach for only a moment. No one knows yet, and no one will not for a bit longer. There is only a singular person in who she can confide this in and so she requested a meeting. Somewhere quiet where they would remain safe and could dine in peace.

 ❝ i apologize to pull your from important things. but with such insanity i have hardly been able to speak with Ani. I suppose even those like you and I crave breaks. ❞ She offers a bashful smile at first before it begins to fade. her gaze drifts as a heavy weight begins to center around her. a darkness and a deeper pull towards something sinister. ❝  Ani.  ❞ her voice is that of a whisper, a moment of brimming tears before a gentle shake of her head and a look to her friend. ❝  I have a lot I must speak with you about. but i have to request they are kept between us. i hope it does not burden you nor what you do.  ❞

SEND  ✐  FOR  A  RANDOM  SENTENCE  STARTER ➜   sent ,      @afflaetus​ ,      770 .

His  mind  had  been  distracted  all  morning,  and  apparently  he  wasn’t  hiding  it  well  enough.  The  quick  glance  at  his  phone  when  shutting  off  his  alarm  set  the  mood  for  the  day  --  it  was  the  anniversary.  Sixteen  years  she  has  been  dead.

Rebellious  eyes  veer  away  from  her,  miraculously  finding  a  point  of  interest  on  an empty  wall.  He  wanted  to  deny  her;  to  keep  her  at  arms  length  (  to  draw  her  close ).  As  much  as  he  wanted  to  confidently  reject  her  statement,  not  even  he  could  lie  about  this --  she  did  know  him.  She  did  know  the  turmoil  that  pressed  at  his  chest.

Deflect;  the  only  defense  mechanism  that  works.  Even  if

𝗂𝗍    𝗁𝖺𝖽    𝖻𝖾𝖾𝗇    𝖺    𝗅𝖺𝗉𝗌𝖾    𝗈𝖿    𝗃𝗎𝖽𝗀𝖾𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍.    your    mind    playing    more    tricks    on    you.    he    had    only    been    gone    for    half    an    hour,    but    in    that    half    an    hour,    your    mind    had    transported    back    to    the    planet    centuris    six.    but    you    knew    in    your    head    it    was    just    your    mind    playing    games,    and    he    was    gone.    you    had    screamed,    and    fought    and    broken,    and    he    was    gone.    somewhere    in    your    head,    you    knew    that    if    he    was    there,    you’d    feel    safer,    for    some    reason.    you    had    only    come    to    when    he    had    wrapped    his    arms    around    you,    whispering    words    of    affirmation    to    your    ear.    he    was    trying,    and    he    had    succeeded,    you    were    back    to    yourself,    and    he    has    whispered    the    words    in    your    ear,    and    your    heart    swells.    you    do    not    move    now,    instead    you    move    yourself    closer,    arms    tightening    around    him,    and    the    whiteness    in    your    eyes    completely    receding.    even    if    you    are    still    a    little    fragile,    you    are    in    command    now,    clearly    fully    there.

red    (  taylor’s   version  )    rp    meme.  ;  accepting!

𝗒𝗈𝗎    𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍    𝖾𝗑𝗉𝖾𝖼𝗍    𝗍𝗁𝖾    𝗐𝗈𝗋𝖽𝗌    𝗍𝗈    𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾    𝗈𝗎𝗍    𝗈𝖿    𝗁𝗂𝗌    𝗆𝗈𝗎𝗍𝗁.    you    feel    like    you    are    walking    on    eggshells.    knowing    that    he    doesn’t    remember    is    in    the    forefront    of    your    mind,    that    you    cannot    assume    he    will    ever    feel    the    same    way.    you    haven’t    offered    to    talk    about    what    happened    before,    what    you    had    lived    together    before.    what    he    had    done    for    you    when    you    were    suffering    from    mahd    wy’ry.    now    you    are    for    the    most    part    fixed,    with    memories    of    the    far    away    planet    locked    away,    the    only    ones    remaining    are    the    ones    from    earth.    you    fold    your    hands    now,    settling    in    your    seat    now.    he    isn’t    anxious    anymore,    stressed    from    his    traumatic    death.    you    are    just    talking    now,    trying    to    see    if    there’s    anything    there,    but    there    doesn’t    seem    anything.    at    the    very    least,    you    have    him    back,    and    if    he    never    loves    you    again,    never    feels    the    same    way    again,    you    are    just    happy    to    have    him    back    in    your    life.    so,    you    take    a    deep    breath,    ❝    i    do.    we...    we    were    together.    before    you    died.    i    had    mahd    wy’ry,    an    illness    that    affect    eternals    like    us,    mind    fragmenting    because    of    the    memories.    you    used    to    take    care    of    me.    but,    we    loved    each    other    long    before    that,    ❞    you    pause    now,    eyes    moving    from    him    to    your    hands    now,    ❝    i    don’t    expect    you    to    feel    the    same    way    now.    i    am    happy    that    you    are    here    now.    you    deserve    a    longer    life,    there    is    much    to    do    that    now    that    we    are    no    longer    in    chains    thanks    to    arishem.    ❞

red    (  taylor’s   version  )    rp    meme.  ;  accepting!