#adviceanyone

So I'm bout to just vent real quick or not even that more like type my thoughts out and if any one of my beautiful followers read and have some advice or agree or disagree then feel free to let me know. So this one morning I got into a really really bad fight with my mom. Like a lot of things got bought up...shit from when I was 16. And I used to say like my mom has something against me which is why she is the way she is with me. And that morning I found out that it was true and even though it was said out loud I know she knows that I'm gay and she hates me because of that. So any who I went to work a COMPLETE mess that day. I called my "little sister" and vented and cried my eyes out. And at work I tried so hard to keep it together. To a point where I had to run off to the bathroom so my residents (work in a retirement home) wouldn't see me fall apart. So during my lunch break I'm trying hard to just not think about shit and I look outside. I see a girl walk past the window..my body perks up and I'm like 😮 I've never seen her before. But I figured she was visiting her grandma or some shit. Then I see her walk in the dining room. I'm like 😳😳😳 she must be the Temp person we have. So the day goes on and I'm just being polite with her. And one way or another we end up talking and come to find out she lives not far from me so I offer her a ride home. She agrees. So the day goes and I'm excited thinking like yo did god send me this girl cuz he knew how shitty I was feeling ?! 😂😂 so anyways finally we're done with our day and I tell her I'll wait for her outside while she gathers her shit. So we walk to my car and she sits down and she's like "so you like girls,right?" I'm like 😳 caught off guard and I reply yeah how did you know? She's like I got this vibe off you and I'm bi so yeah. I instantly had flashbacks to the last time a girl was so upfront with me that lead to the craziest sex story I have. So anyways we ended up exchanging numbers. So the days continued on..our plans to chill kept falling through. So finally one Sunday night after work we planned to chill.. I got us a 12 pack of beers and picked her up. We ended up goin to a bar nearby. So to make this story shorter she was in the bathroom and I'm there just chillin waiting for her and she's washing her hands and then she just comes in for a kiss..and I grab her by the waist and pull her in tighter. So after a quick "make out" session she stops and she's like "I know that's what you wanted" I didn't say anything just pulled her in again.so the night continues we end up drinking sooo much. And through out the night she's like kissing me and all this shit. And obviously I'm loving it cuz she's just 🔥🔥🔥 so anyways long story short i kind of let her go without a fight. Like we went on a date and it was great but she was dealing with a break up so I literally just stopped fucking with her. She texted me recently and I'm just kind of thinking. Should I pursue this girl or is it a waste. There's some things about her that has me like nah. But then again I met her in a time where I was just a mess and I feel like maybe there was a reason for that. Or idk.

So i have this weird thing where i get like really bad anxiety when someone around me gets sick like i don’t care if its like cold or flu sick but like when there sick to their stomach (might vomit) sick. it like seriously freaks me out and i get anxious and like wash my hands every 2 seconds and don’t wanna be around them. This is literally ruining my life because its all i think about 24/7 and i am sick of living in fear that i am going to get sick :( can someone relate?? i needed to get that off my chest xx