#adventdenial

It was late and I was scrolling through tumbler enjoying myself and I came upon the advent calendar post. My master had just asked me the other day if there was anything new I felt like exploring and at the time I had no ideas. I have never seriously done denial but it has always been an interest of mine so I sent it over, sadly Sir was asleep so I was going to have to wait for a response. 

As I lay in bed I thought about how much fun the denial would be, how deliciously horny I would be, I thought maybe I should just have one last orgasm before I committed. My master hadn't gotten the message yet so technically I wouldn’t be breaking any rules....

I toyed with the idea, orgasm, denial, orgasm, denial, and finally decided on denial, if my master was game then I would start the month off right, and if he wasn’t interested I would orgasm tomorrow.  

So for the next 24 days, I will be following these rules: 

You are not allowed to cum without permission until Day 24 of the challenge

You are to edge at least three times every day unless told otherwise

If you go over the edge of climax accidentally you are to ruin the orgasm

This is another thing I have actually done before, not an intentional edge but I have been on the phone while a man pleasured me, twice. The first time I was on the phone with my mother and the guy I was with got tired of waiting, he started to play with me and then suddenly he bit my naked ass, the nerve. I told my mom I had stubbed my toe to explain my cry. The second time I was in the middle of getting frisky and I got a distressed call from a drunk friend so being the good friend I am I answered, how rude of me. He let me talk for a minute then proceeded to taught me with his tongue and his fingers, I did my best to control my panting but had my friend not been drunk I probably would have gotten caught.  

I woke up today with quite a few messages from my master, he was very interested in helping me with the denial calendar. I must mention I also woke up very horny and his messages did not help at all. I hadn’t even truly started and I am already a mess, this was going to be hard. 

The calendar asked for a ruin today, after completing the set edges for the day, a final ruined orgasm. So I started my day off with some play that left my pussy throbbing with want and need. Then I had to go about my day, trying to write my essay all the while crossing and uncrossing my legs giving lovely stimulation to my wanting pussy. 

How do I feel about facials, I am not against them but I don’t love them. I don’t like semen in my hair, or in my eyes, I find it messy and would rather swallow or have him cum inside me. I just find it cleaner and easier. That said if a guy wants to cum on my face I will let him. I don’t like letting the semen rest on my tongue I would rather just swallow it. I do understand the point and appeal though to kneeling and opening wide, tongue out. On a scale of ten, I rate it a four. 

I watched the video one time though while edging, and I didn’t love it, although those ladies do look very happy. I definitely focused in on the video where he cums on the woman's tits. It was an interesting edge, I was horny and aroused despite my feelings about facials. I just don’t see them as overly sexy but I was really turned on and I liked watching other people orgasm while I was denied. I think that was actually the best parts, watching all those awesome orgasms while I just sat on the edge. It was actually very hard for me to edge for the whole time, 12 minutes is a long time to hold an edge.  

Sunday fun day, I was intrigued by the sharing portion of today, I am having fun but it is a fine line to walk you never know how someone will respond. But I do have a friend who is kinkier, so I gave her a call this afternoon. And we got to talking about sex, she knows I like to have kinkier sex and she likes to hear about it, so today I casually dropped that I hadn’t been orgasming and I had been edging instead. I didn’t bring up the calendar, I wanted to see what she thought first and her interests were peaked. She is very committed to her orgasms though, the type of girl who tells a guy he’s not allowed to be done until she's done despite being submissive. I told her she should try it, she has shared with me that she thinks she overuses her vibrator so I suggested she try to use it in a new way.... I’ll see what she thinks tomorrow I guess. 

So far as the hypnotic edging goes I had never done that before and was very curious, so I clicked on the links just to see what it was about. The audio started to play first and I just let it play as I looked at the pictures. I just meant to look at them quickly but I was drawn in, the pictures were just really enticing. I ended up watching and listening for a while. They just kept flashing by so quickly and I just wanted to keep watching, seeing the next delicious image. I got my first edge in then, just watching, not even touching, just watching and enjoying. That was quite the experience. 

I did my second edge just watching the pictures, they were very enjoyable, just a little snaps that left you wanting more, kind of like an edge, just a little taste leaving you hungry for more. I don’t think the hypnotic style increased my edging but it was fun to try. 

Our choice of task today, whatever I wanted to do, except no ruin. I have been enjoying my heightened pleasure from penetration so I decided to have a bit of fun with that today. 

For my first ruin, I used a vibrator, and I really focused on penetration alone, I wanted to avoid my clit and see if I could get all the way to an edge with just stimulation. I started with the vibrator just bearly inside, I wanted it deeper, I wanted more but I was going to be patient, I could wait. When I couldn't stand it anymore I  pushed it in just far enough to hit my G spot. I pumped up the vibration, moving it back and forth, up and down. Still careful not to stimulate my clit. This all felt amazing and I did get close but I didn't reach the edge. 

Today's challenge was in my opinion like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. I have really been enjoying edging I have even started to look forward to it, I still miss the orgasms and want them but I really have started to like edging.

I let Sir flip a coin for me today, I got a ruin, and I didn’t want it. I was afraid that the ruin would leave me panting, dripping and desperate. The ruin would just put me that much closer to an orgasm, an orgasm I couldn’t have. I asked for permission to switch but it was not granted. 

I have been exhibiting such control and I have really started to enjoy creeping up to that edge and then backing off. I have enjoyed the increased arousal, the hyper-sensitive clit, the constant thoughts of touching. Now I had to challenge myself and try to ruin then maintain my control. 

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