#admin jessie posts

Hi. I've been missing a while. I'm surprised so many of you are still here but I'm so grateful to have you here.

To those new around here, I'm Jessie. The admin of this page. To those who have been around, it's so good to see you all again.

I lost my love for writing. I can't figure out when. I lost my uncle when I was still in college and, when I got my first big girl career, I lost my grandmother who was the most important person to me.

I got some not great anonymous messages on here, one even saying that they knew who I was which was so incredibly terrifying and why I have anon turned off. I'm still afraid of turning it back on but that also feels like I'm disconnecting from those that want to talk to me.

I'm on my third (fourth?) rewatch of One Piece and I'm trying to find joy again in writing. So that's why I've been posting recently. I've got some works in drafts that I'll be posting at least once a day until I run out.

So, for more technical, I'm also on AO3. I'm not good at AO3. For those that are more familiar with it, I still haven't figured out how to post over there. I have two ways that I'm thinking but have no idea. One is that I post all my monthly scenarios in one "story." The second is to post individual stories.

For example for the first way, the work on AO3 would be called 2024 June One Piece Scenarios and Headcannons, the first chapter would be the Kid story, the second chapter would be the Marco and Ace headcanons, the third chapter would be Dating Law would include, etc.

For the second way, the work would be Kid's scenario, the next work would be the Marco and Ace headcanons, and the next work would be Dating Law. So each new work on my page would be equal to a new post from here.

For AO3 people, please let me know. I'm trying to post the stories I write here onto there. I'll turn anon back on for that.

I’ve been so depressed and anxious about the COVID-19 thing. I’ve been basically laid off by my work as it is a retail store like a lot of people and I’ve been dealing with my grandma’s deteriorating health, which I can’t even visit her because of being quarantined. As a pessimist, I don’t see positives a lot. 

Out of nowhere, I got a Ko-Fi notification. When I tell you I almost cried, it’s not an exaggeration. During this time, someone was kind enough to send me a ko-fi because of how much they like my stories. It meant the world to me. 

It might seem stupid to many of you and it might be but... this person didn’t have to do that yet they did. I just... It made me feel that humanity that I thought was gone. 

ANYWAY, last year around this time, I was accepting requests for Valentine’s Day which is an event I’ve done for a couple years as a tradition. This past event was actually really bad for my self confidence in writing because I couldn’t get them out. I still have some to finish up actually and I will get those out. I’m sorry they’ve taken so long.

But, I don’t want to do nothing for Valentine’s Day because it’s tradition despite my dislike in the holiday. So, I was thinking of doing “Dating ____ would include...” for that day or doing “____ Firsts” or even “Having a family with ____ would include.” 

>:(