todoroki angst please! I need by Icyhot hubby and tears (hhggggggg i'm messed up. today has been rough)
A/n: Hope you feel better! This was fun to write,,, thank you anon! Thanks for the help from a special person <3
Since when had the world looked so dreary.
A habitual frown was plastered on the male’s face as heterochromic dull orbs dazily watched the pouring rain. He turned his gaze to the students walking out the gate with their raincoats and umbrellas. He gripped onto his umbrella tighter, impatience rising.
The said boy had turned around to see the person who had called him. The freckled boy ran towards him with umbrella in hand. “Do you wanna come with Uraraka, Iida, and I to the mall? Everyone else are gonna be out by what I heard” Midoriya inquired. Shoto politely shook his head to decline. No words were able to go past his pale and cold lip. A frown made its way to Midoriya’s face.
“Oh, Alright. See you later” He said and left with his two friends. As soon as that was over, he was back to simply standing by the gate of UA.
Several minutes had passed by along with the students. A cold breath escaped from his lips, he finally decided to give up and walk back to the dorms.
His shoes made splatters through puddles causing plops and his footsteps to be more audible than usual. The rain falling lightly on his transparent umbrella as well as the unclear chattering of passerbyers filled his ears.
Dark circles under his eyes were evident. His head constantly ached from the lack of sleep from the previous nights; nights he spent trying to figure out why he wasn’t feeling well. The boy was disheveled.
He stops in front of a small convenience store. He closed his umbrella to put in into the holder as he entered. He was about to take a left turn to the instant heated food until he saw a blur of red and (E/c).
You were laughing with his classmates he also easily recognized, Ashido and Jirou. The only odd thing was that everything was monochromic; the only colors in his vision being your bright (E/c) orbs and the scarlet hairclip on your hair. He stood there admiring how warm and surreal the sight in front of him was. It felt somewhat comforting, a warm aura radiating from the red and (E/c). Slowly, a shade of pink faded into his vision, coming from your cheeks. A blush coated your cheeks as you smiled and talked to the two other females. He pondered on how you were able to radiate such an aura and warmth at a cold, rainy, and lonely day like this.
He lifted his hand to try and move forward but something stopped him. He couldn’t bring himself to do so.
You and the other two began to walk for the exit, which was close to him. Every step you made closer to him, the warmth increased and color began to fade into his vision. Once you and the girls were finally beside him, you suddenly vanished. Just as you vanished, color suddenly snapped back to sight; it was as if reality had just washed over him. The coldness returned as Ashido and Jirou walked away together.
He sighed and went to the instant warm food aisle.
Todoroki shut the main door of Heights Alliance as he removed his shoes. The building seemed isolated. ‘Right. Everyone’s out tonight’ he remembered. He shook the thought off and walked up to his room.
He let out a sigh of relief to be back in his room. He sat down on the tatami mat and opened his school bag to get some of his school books. He opened them and set his mind to study.
5 minutes had passed; blanks on the book were still not filled.
10 minutes passed; knowledge from the printed words in the book had not been gained.
30 minutes passed; his focus was elsewhere.
The dual haired boy gritted his teeth in frustration. He tried to focus on his studies but an ache and constant churning in his heart would remain. It was unlike him to be like this. He attempted to turn a blind eye to it but it would hurt even more when he tried to do so. It was similar to what was happening days ago, weeks, even months. Even though it had been such a span of time with that occurrence, he couldn’t bear to get used to it. He breathed out in attempt to clear his mind.
When he was finally able to concentrate, a melody had come to his earshot. His eyebrows furrowed in confusion. If someone had arrived, a ruckus and noise would have been heard from downstairs. The melody was distinctly heard. He listened to it, just as he was doing so, the warm aura from earlier had come back.
He stood up and listened intently in order to follow where the humming was coming from. It wasn’t that it was bad, but the warm feeling from earlier felt too comforting, as if it were also making him move and come closer, as if it were alluring.
He finally arrived to the area across his room. It was surely coming from the room with a door creaked open slightly. Todoroki walked closer to the small opening to see who or what was in there just to check if it was safe.
The moment he was able to gain a clear glimpse, his eyes widened, pupils dilated.
You were in the empty room. Your eyes were shut gently as your body moved gracefully in several movements. Your lips were also shut softly as you hummed. Every movement was odd yet mesmerizing. Your body tilted and turned around several times while your arms and legs moved in sync. It was amazing in his sight. The warmth increased ever so slowly.
A tingling volt had suddenly and slowly rushed up his body while he watched. Not a second hid he take his eyes off until he snapped himself out of his daze. He sighed and decided to go back to his room. He stopped himself before doing so. He turned his head around to get one last look however, when he looked back, you were gone.
A sudden ache came back to his head. He should have expected it. His heart fluttered and ached at the same time. At first, he was completely unaware and oblivious to his feelings. After he had come to recognize them, he shunned his feelings for you. He didn’t want to accept it. He knew full well he was infatuated but didn’t want to continue having those feelings. It would bring great harm to you both; so he stood by the sidelines and simply continued. Every time he would see you, it was like you were provoking him, alluring him into temptation. He knew full well he loved you but he began to wonder why the thought of you slipped his mind.
He went to the elevator and decided to go down walk out to the courtyard. A dam feeling on his head and shoulders were suddenly felt. Todoroki lifted his head to have drizzling rain falling onto his face. He removed his jacket to put it on a large stone of hang on.
He walked to the center of the dimly lit courtyard and lifted his knee slightly. After a shot moment, he moved his arm and made a sharp and small turn. His right shoulder moved forward suddenly then his neck turned to the side and tilted to the left and around. He lifted his both his arms to have his right arm slightly upward with his hand bend while the left arm was downwards and his hand bent as well, he swiftly moved his arms to the alternative position before he lifted his left arm up along with his right knee slightly bent upwards. He began to hum and imitate the tune of your melody from earlier just as he was doing so with your dance.
His neck craned to the side then downwards while he bent his upper body down to quickly shoot up.
His head began to throb as his hair and clothes were now drenched in rain water. He didn’t mind it though and continued to move. He turned his foot to the side making his body do so as well. A splash of water was sent away with his foot. His arms moved in sync with his body. He immediately heard the main door open along with the chattering and footsteps of his classmates signaling that they were back but he couldn’t bring himself to stop. He yearned to continuously have the warmth he was feeling now, the melody to eternally remain in his earshot.
His body bent down slowly to pause and embrace the warmth and coolness.
Midoriya grinned at his classmates while conversing until he remembered that Todoroki was alone. He was just about to excuse himself to go and check if Todoroki was back until he heard Bakugou.
“What the actual fuck is that Icyhot bastard doing now? Is he drunk or some shit?”
This had caught everyone’s attention. The rest of class 1-A had began to watch as Todoroki danced outside in the rain.
“Oui, he’s intoxicated in love. Mourning for the loss and unrequited feelings of his love every night.”
“Aoyama, I’m severely concerned for your mental health.”
Uraraka walked towards Midoriya with a frown plastered in her face. “Hey Deku, is Todoroki alright?”
Her question made him frown because he knew full well what the answer was.
“Todoroki is still upset about L/n’s disappearance. It’s been months but I believe he’s been hung up on it. I noticed he did that a few weeks ago and remembered it was the dance L/n used to do back then.” Midoriya explained.
“Right. I remember he liked her.” Sero blurted out. “Sero! You shouldn’t say things that you aren’t supposed to especially if they are regarding someone’s personal business” Iida scolded.
“So Aoyama is right” Uraraka said.
“No” Midoriya firmly said. “L/n is not dead. She’s just missing. Todoroki’s upset about shunning his feelings for her, he’s upset that while doing so, He ignored her and wasn’t able to do anything. We all are.” He said.
“Then let’s try to get her back” Kirishima prompted.
“L/n said in the not in her room that we shouldn’t follow her. Let’s respect her wish” Yaoyorozu said.
“You’re saying that as if she were dead! Midoriya just said she isn’t” Kirishima yelled.
“Kirishima cool down” Ashido said.
“Right. Todoroki’s doing the best thing we can do” Midoriya said.
“Morning? Staying in the rain dancing?” Kaminari questioned.
“N-no that’s not what I mean. He’s keeping hope that she’s fine at the same time having faith in her. He knows he shouldn’t be mourning but… yet he is still upset. He’s turning pain into strength. Todoroki just needs to finally realize it wasn’t his fault.” Midoriya said.
Iida sighed while nodding. “Everyone go back to your rooms and prepare for bed. I’ll try to being Todoroki back in before he catches a co-”
“He’ll come back Iida. Trust me; like what he’s doing with L/n” Midoriya forced on a smile before shifting his gaze to Todoroki who was still moving in the rain.
*The flamingo meaning also encourages you to get in touch with your emotions. Be a better and stronger person by turning your pain into strength.
