#admin afra talks

Hello everyone. I know that many people have been messaging me and asking how I am, especially after the war in my country when I completely disappeared. And I really apologize if I caused you any concern by disappearing. Although I was in touch with a few of my close friends like Moni and Christine, even if only briefly. But now I'm here and I want to give a full explanation of my situation.

Well, first of all, I've to say that seven months ago, after a difficult experience, I decided to focus on myself and my healing. And it was going well. In fact, great progress and I was ready to rejoin fandom for Christmas or the anniversary of my main blog @dia-souls. I was completely recovered until a month ago, hell began in my country. And when I say hell, I'm not kidding.

Protests began against the government in my country due to economic and livelihood problems and we hoped to fight for freedom and win. But what happened was that the government answered us with bullets. They cut off the internet and cut off our connection to the rest of the world. And according to published statistics, it has killed at least 36,000 people so far.

I'm sorry to say this, but I'm no longer alive. I have no heart left. I have no reason to live or hope to continue. 6 of my dearest friends are dead. 3 of my relatives were murdered. And my fiancé was killed. That's right, my fiancé. My sweet, loving boy. The kindest, most precious person in my life. I never revealed that I had a boyfriend. We got engaged two months ago and we had hopes for a great future. But now I'm left alone. Without the love of my life. And I wish I was dead. I wish I could join my friends and my fiancé.

It's been two weeks since my fiancé's death, and now that I have limited access to the internet, I feel ready to talk about it.

Next, I have to say about myself. The last plan I had to return to this fandom was the anniversary of my main blog @dia-souls , which I prepared a post for. I will publish that post on the anniversary of the blog, and I don't know when I can return. I had a lot of plans for my blog, but right now I need to be alone for a while. I need to get over these events and this great sadness. Thank you all for asking about me, I really appreciate you.

Maybe one day I can go back and write that long novel for Yui that I always wanted to. Maybe one day I can put more emotion into that novel and even write my own story.

My only hope was freedom. My fiancé's hope, my friends' hope, and the people of Iran's hope was freedom. I hope we can achieve it.

And my country may cut off internet again so goodbye till then.

Hello everyone.

Well, I honestly don't know where to start. I've been through so much in the past few months. I feel like talking about it and repeating such memories won't change anything in me.

Losing the love of my life was a terrible and difficult change. It's been more than five months and I've come to the conclusion that I can't go on like this. I decided to make a change to make myself feel better. And I remembered how much this fandom brings me joy and happiness. Although I haven't fully recovered from this trauma yet, I decided to get back into the fandom. Maybe getting back into writing and drawing can make a positive change for me. I'm sure my dear boyfriend would want the same for me. And I still have hope for freedom and a better future.

I want to finally write that series of novels I've always wanted for this fandom and I decided to start soon. And I'd like to slowly get back into drawing. Today I'm publishing a new post on my main blog @dia-souls again and gradually increasing my activity.

Wow I received so many new asks about my opinion on different DL stuffs. I didn't know people here care this much about my opinion, like seriously???? Lol. I'll try to answer them as soon as possible.

I'm so happy. I really missed my home DL. And how people are greeting me is just so sweet. Anyway I'm writing some fan made drama cds and fanfics right now. I need more ideas for arts. My ask box is completely open to your suggestions. I would be so happy to hear you ideas.

My life will never be the same without you. This was supposed to be our first Valentine's as engaged couples. We were supposed to build a dream life together. But you're gone. How am I supposed to build that life without you?

I don't know how to describe how much I miss you these days. I miss the days you sent me flowers and gifts to my dorm. I miss the days my friends laughed at your innocent gifts. I miss the way you looked at me. I miss the library we were supposed to build together. I miss how you always supported me in writing and drawing. I miss you. Come back to me. Let's go home.

All I can say is that we are still fighting for freedom. I'm fighting too. Either we will be free or I'll join you. And if one day we are free, I’ll tell your story to the whole world. Our story. I keep our story alive.

Happy 20th birthday to me. I've lived for two decades. I've experienced bitter and sweet things, and I can't describe how rewarding and sweet the experience of this fandom and falling in love with Yui was. This kiss is my birthday gift from my love Yui ^^

I have reached a new stage in my life as an adult and I am happy to be here now and soon I will be expanding my painting and writing business internationally. My collection will be published soon and I am very excited to introduce it to you and I can't wait for it to be translated into English so that I can have the opportunity to publish in other countries as well.