Same anon who is a girl btw, i do show the signs of having adhd, literally no doubt, but im always a teensy bit different from other adhdiers, all my adhd friends kinda differ from me a little bit, but i dont even really think i have autism (at least i takr the professional diagnosis because i cant rely on online tests to self diagnose), maybe im a little different because im also professionaly diagnosed with ocd??? Bu i dont think that really is a change... i dont know

Oh nevermind the whole "im a little dofferent from other adhders" haha i just kinda found out the multiple types of adhd and i actually fit into the categories

1) I’m super glad you found out this stuff while I was away being a fl a ke haha

2) tbh it wasn’t until I found out there was more than one type of adhd that I realized what was going on with me? I kept reading stuff about adhd and being like ‘but that’s not really how I feel’ or ‘that’s not really relateable’ and then I found people talking about adhd-pi and I was like OH MaN BINGO????? so hey

OH MAN #RELATEABLE

I’m pretty ace/aro so I haven’t done a lot of crushing on people but I’ve dated a lot of people who asked me out and like ... the initial excitement of new relationship! wears off pretty fast and then I’ve always been bored and wanted out. and I def think this is an adhd thing, or related to adhd? I have no proof and I’m not an expert or anything but that ‘I only care while it’s new’ thing applies to way more than school projects.

(there’s also a name for the type of romantic/sexual feeling that only lasts as long as it’s unrequited or new, but I can’t find it right now. maybe somebody can help us out ;; )

(sidenote tho? i’ve had a steady partner for over 5 years now that I love very much. and like: basically I totally got bored like usual about a month after getting together, but I was like ‘this person is still super important to me even though I’m not hyperfixated like I was at the start. so I’m gonna try to stick this out despite not feeling excitement anymore.’ and deciding to stick it out turned it into more of a commitment than a feeling.

dude. i hate that we call everything ‘edgy’. you’re allowed to have shitty feelings about stuff. you’re only an edgelord if you’re using it to act like you’re superior to others because you’re more woke or something.

I don’t know you, but if it’s cool for me to give an opinion: there is a ‘true character’ underneath your adhd and all the shit you’ve been through. but it’s okay if your character is partially shaped by the shit you’ve been through. experiences change us. it’s just up to us to try to not be shitty to other people because of those changes. (and sometimes, because brains are weird, we can take a shitty situation and become better from it??? basically: it doesn’t have to be all bad shapes!)

and also: it’s okay if your character is partially shaped by adhd as well. mine is. there’s parts of it that I like - the quantum brain leaps, the creativity - and parts that I hate - the unpredictability, the struggle against procrastination that I lose more often than not. but I’ve lived with them my whole life so I’m kind of inevitably shaped, at least partially, by my struggles with adhd. it’s not bad or good: just me.

anyway. don’t doubt for a second that even though you’ve been through a lot, there’s a lot of good things about you. it might help to write them down when you think of them? adhd can seriously make you forget your personality traits, at least in my experience! it’s wild.

nah man you’re not weird! 

crying in general is kinda weird because it’s not actually about being sad. crying is probably caused by an excess amount of any emotion! that’s why you can happy cry and angry cry and cry because you’re scared and whatever else.

ooooooooh myyyyyyyyyy goooooooooodd

man nothing pushes my buttons like non-adhd people telling adhd people what they can and cannot remember tbh. like: ??? the whole point is that we can’t hold things in our working memory well??

it’s like I wrote an anon to myself #relateable

uuuuggggghhhh the struggggggg. and honestly even after getting evaluated by a psychiatrist and going on meds and responding well to meds and getting CBT I’m still like ‘but it wasn’t the full 6-10 hour long evaluation, what if I’m full of lies?’ (though seriously speaking getting a full evaluation is the only way to be absolutely sure, and I want to get one as soon as I can afford it). 

I hope that you can get an evaluation and find out if you do have it for your peace of mind D:

I can only make suggestions D: these are not professional advice!

check out this site for suggestions of lots of things that can help with adhd without meds! ADDitude is a pretty good resource and they have professionals on staff.

try get a fidget item to give you something to do that isn’t your usual stimming. the fidget cube is something I really want! if your normal stim involves noise and lots of movement, these might help you sit more quietly when you absolutely have to.

also I know some people find it super annoying but if you can do it I seriously recommend trying to just push all your excess energy into one leg and just bouncing it a lot. like if you gotta move you g o t t a and the Leg Bounce is a Socially Acceptable(tm) way to stim

If it’s possible for you, do daily exercise! hyperactivity can be partially relieved by physical activity. If you can go running or lift weights or do jumping jacks or anything that will raise your heartrate it will burn off some of that excess energy and help you feel less like you’re gonna vibrate out of your seat