dear anon
Thank you
I didn't publish your ask because of your personal details - you can work with any chart - look at Taylor - no aspects to her sun. Some astrologers say difficulty making connections, others say total out of the box mastery is possible. She tries hard and found an oblique way to sift through her emotions - writing them as sound and hearing the resolution alignements. The more she did it the better she has got :)
Find a good astrologer but always have your own thoughts - saturn is so grinding when young, and if you have a lot of planets retrograde you may be a late starter or find it difficult to get to grips with things (?until after your second saturn return?)
There is always a way - (learning kinesiology (TFH, 3 in 1, Brain gym, Athias le corps point par point) has brought everything together for me and finding I could feel the test in my body and so work on myself), and time/experience. :)
I was in india for 9 weeks in 2000 - arrived at Mumbai at midnight - went outside and people were 50 deep. Alot of people :) so I took a flight straight to Jaipur and realised it is only necessary to step into the colour and movement. you may always have known that, perhaps you are looking for counterbalance or context or bouyancy. Can you identify what you don't know where things don't work out. If you go to astro.com (free horoscopes, location, astroclick travel) you can click on different places - if you live in some places you may have extra difficulty or chaos built in. Serennu.com is wonderful for asteroids. I love https://transneptunian-astrology.blogspot.com/ too
I loved A River Sutra by Gita Mehta
i rewatch these two videos when I doubt
ask anything any time - if i don't know, someone else will - you will certainly know what is a fit for you.
I have mercury in the 12th - an astrologer told me you can rev up your mind until you can see 360° at once or you can still your mind and let the answers rise.
Look at the cycles and themes what works and what needs to be constructed. I also have a stack of planets in virgo - another astrologer said my chart is like an aeroplane huge thrust in the tail really difficult to fly and just about enough earth in the wings to stabilise it if you can get it airborne - so then you go the way of oogway? Kung fu panda 1&2 were a revelation to me :)
courage - just try and find what works - keep half an eye or ear open for things that interest you - doesn't matter if it takes a decade or two: when I saw POTC3 https://youtu.be/sNj8mJq65i4 I just knew if I could witness how it expressed itself in the 3D I would know something about (healing) inversion.
I got alot from CJ jung too
Love is in the earth by Melody
Healing with wholefoods by paul pitchford
