#actuallypositive

Neurotypicals have tried to make it "embarassing" or "cringey" to use it, and try to make us ashamed of using accurate and scientific terminology to describe our experiences as trauma survivors, mentally ill and developmentally disabled people.

I believe a large part of the reason they do this is to silence us. To try and make us ashamed of describing our experiences. To try and make is hide away our symptoms. To try and silence us.

Idk, I just feel like it's so easy to try and look for a solution, and the realization that their isn't a real problem to feel anxious about is a hard one but really important. And it's not easy! But it's been overall so healing to be able to stop myself and say "you're anxious because you have anxiety", even if that's not exactly what I want to hear.

I am clawing at the earth. Digging in reverse, Frantic pulling downwards, Downwards. Suffocation hovers at the edges But I'm well beyond all breathing.

I am emerging From that cocoon of soil and worms. I cough up a deathtime of dirt And here comes the dread: What now?