Feeling pretty guilty about my intake recently. I am trying to secretly gain weight behind my own back... I am still noticing myself doing it though (who woulda guessed). I have been super bloated for over a week now, which sucks. Really looking forward to it settling down. My blood sugar levels also seem to be going off the rails- constantly crashing and leaving me on the floor. I’m trying to eat healthier and I’m still getting these issues. It feels unfair. My period isn’t back yet either, which I’m not really upset about but I know it’s bad for my bones (which I am also kind of worried about at the moment...).
I just wish recovery was easier than letting the disorder take over. I wish I could feel good about doing this. I‘ll get there.














