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James didnāt know if the words were supposed to make him feel better but they certainly didn't. As interested as he was in her he would never force her into something if she didnāt like him. He had just thought if she gave him a chance she would realize she was mistaken in her assumptions of him and he was actually someone she liked. āItās okay if you donāt, I mean sometimes people donāt click.ā
āIām not --Ā ā she paused, trying to think of the words she wanted, to make him understand how she felt. How different this felt, compared to the other blokes she hung around, how much she cared about him. Why couldnāt she just --- say it?
āWhat I mean, James, is that --- well, I already fancy you, right? But for a long time -- ages, really, I thought we were just mates. That you were just --- joking. And --- well, it took a while to realize that I do fancy you. And if we --- if we keep hanging around each other, I know, I know --- Iāll fall for you. And I donāt know if I want to. Because --- when I love people, they --- thereās something --- something wrong with me, all right?ā That part was a bit harder to say, amidst rushed words that she had trouble differentiating. But she knew what she meant -- people who loved her, they left. Her parents? Dead, because she was a witch. Her sister? Hated her, also because she was a witch. And Severus? Her best mate? Well, he hated her because of what she was too. And she didnāt want to lose James -- it was an entirely selfish form of thinking, she knew this.Ā
āJust -- I donāt want to lose you, yeah? And if I love you, if I fall in love with you, I will.āĀ











