#ace-mcspades

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That actually reminds me of my own reread, and a realization I had when rereading the convo between Karkat and John on Vriska’s computer., specifically here: https://www.homestuck.com/story/3867 I remember the impression I had gotten the first time reading it (‘holy shit did Karkat kill Gamzee?’) but reading it again gave a different impression. 1/ See, Kat’s whole way of talking there says that Gamzee ‘was’ his best friend, and not the way you’d talk if said best friend was just upgraded to moirail. He continues to talk about how Gamzee did some shitty stuff, killed some people, but he ‘liked him a lot’. I saw the pale gamkar potential too (although I don’t build ships so much as look at other people’s blueprints and go, ‘oh, that ship will hold up, I’ll use that design’) but even after that whole incident, he talks more like he thinks 2/ that he’s ruined any chance he had with his crush. The specific dialogue that caught my eye in the reread was this: “CG: JOHN, TRUST ME. YOU WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND. CG: IT'S JUST A TROLL THING, HUMANS WOULDN'T GET IT. CG: YOU MIGHT THINK I WAS A SHIT HEAD, AND I CAN'T DEAL WITH THAT NOW ON TOP OF EVERYTHING, SO LET'S DROP IT.” Very specifically, “you might think I was a shithead’. See, this was after I’d had some time to fully process “Pale romance is still romance and pale intimacy is still 3/ intimate” and it occurred to me that on his end that must have felt like taking advantage of Gamzee, who was not his moirail, and was in a highblood rage and therefore in no condition to make a decision like that. In this situation, there’s technically the excuse of “he would have killed everyone if I didn’t”, and it seems more like kissing than anything more serious, but it would still felt wrong and shitty to Karkat, and was, from the perspective of troll society, at the very least dubcon. 4/4

I always got the impression that “thinkpan” was skull, although my brain tends to automatically do shit like that on account of the specific (apparently weird?) way I work from context, and also I need words to mean things

Hmm, let’s look at it:

Evidence for “skull”:

CG: RIGHT NOW THERE'S A LUMBERJACK SPLITTING WOOD ON MY THINK PAN.

CG: JADE, PLEASE EXCUSE ME WHILE I GO PAINT MY FACE TO OUTWARDLY REFLECT THE BEAUTY OF MY INNER AWAKENING, AND DRUB MY THINK PAN MERCILESSLY TO REDUCE MY INTELLIGENCE TO THE LEVEL NECESSARY TO SUSTAIN THESE BELIEFS.

TC: make your worst fears come alive and get up on their haunts in your naphappy pan.

TEREZI: TH3 WORST TH1NG 1SNT 3V3N HOW BR1GHT 1T 1S, OR HOW TH3 W1CK3D 3L1X1RS WR34K1NG H4VOC ON MY P4N

KARKAT: "MORE SHRILL NOISES, LIKE GOD PLAYING THE EDGE OF A GLASS INSIDE YOUR THINK PAN"

KARKAT: I FORGET ALREADY. WHEN I TRIPPED AND FULFILLED MY DESTINY AS A WARRIOR, I MUST HAVE HIT MY THINK PAN HARDER THAN I THOUGHT.

Evidence for “brain/mind”:

GA: The Speech Has Become Emblazoned On My Think Pan

ERIDAN: youvve got nothin to fear noww ivve reached a neww heights of powwer no one else can dream of not evven mindfang wwith her garish orange swweatsuit and her silly flappy wwings and all her poppycock about luck wwhich evveryone wwith a think pan knowws to be the fakest fiction that evver failed to exist

TC: RUSTS YOUR MOTHERFUCKIN THINK PAN.

CG: MY THINK PAN, IT HURTS  

CG: IT IS PRESENTLY THREATENING TO MAKE ME ITS BITCH, JOHN. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?   

CG: DO YOU WANT YOUR COOL ALIEN PAL TO BECOME THE BITCH OF A RAW, THROBBING THINK PAN?????

TC: I HAVE THE IDEA THAT YOU PUT IN MY PAN TO SIT THERE.

KARKAT: SERIOUSLY, IT COULD REALLY EXPAND YOUR LIMITED HUMAN THINK PAN ON STUFF.

LATULA: wh4ts on your th1nk p4n, po-m4ry.

ARANEA: Whatever the case, it was pro8a8ly for the 8est, since pretty much everyone who had half a think pan thought it was all a 8unch of ridiculous nonsense.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii dont evven knoww wwhy ii bothered floatiing dowwn thii2 liittle gra22y gulch twwo fliip you the daiily biird. ii mu2t be out of my already tortured pan twwo bother wwiith ANY of you ovveremotiional fuckbag2.

ARQUIUSPRITE: [shades] --> You just do not have the right kind of think pan to sustain that emotion

KANAYA: How Are We Supposed To Solve That Problem When Your Think Pan Is Addled So!

???

CA: its already been painfully established you people cant get your shalloww think pans under the majesty of our quadrants (as written it looks like “mind”, but I could also see “shallow think pan” as analogous to “thick skull” here)

MEENAH: so you just totally flipped your think pan is all (????)