White Oleander by Janet Finch

❛  every anniversary i’ll pay respects and say i’m sorry. ❛  i’ve never seen the sky this colour before. ❛  no one knows what it’s like to be us. ❛  will i ever get there? ❛  i hope that someday i’ll learn to nurture what i’ve done. ❛  i know there is hope in these waters but i can’t bring myself to swim. ❛  go easy on me, baby. ❛  i changed who i was to put you both first but now i give up. ❛  i was still a child, didn’t get the chance to feel the world around me. ❛  there ain’t no room for things to change when we are both so deeply stuck in our ways. ❛  you can’t deny how hard i have tried. ❛  i had good intentions and the highest hopes. ❛  i know you feel lost, it’s my fault completely. ❛  i’m so far gone and you’re the only one who can save me. ❛  when you lay on me, can you hear the way my heart breaks? ❛  i wanted you to have everything i never had. ❛  i feel like today is the first day since i left him that i feel lonely. ❛  i always preferred being on my own than being with people. ❛  and i feel like today, i'm home and i wanna be at home. i just wanna watch TV and curl up in a ball and be in my sweats and stuff like that, but i just feel really lonely. i feel a bit frightened that i might feel like this a lot. ❛  when you’re in doubt, go at your own pace. ❛  i have nothing to feel no more, i can’t even cry. ❛  when will i begin to feel like me again? ❛  when i wake up i’m afraid at the idea of facing the day. ❛  i would rather stay home on my own, drink it all away. ❛  please stop calling me, it’s exhausting. ❛  i created this storm, it’s only fair i have to sit in its rain. ❛  i know that it’s wrong but i want to have fun. ❛  oh my god, i can’t believe it. out of all the people in the world what is the likelihood of jumping out of my life and into your arms? ❛  i don’t have to explain myself to you. i am a grown woman and i do what i want to do. ❛  teetering on the edge of heaven and hell is a battle i cannot fight. ❛  i will beg and i’ll steal, i will borrow if i can make your heart my home. ❛  can i get it right now? can i get it? ❛  you tease me with your control because i long to live under your spell. ❛  when will you run with me like i know you want to? ❛  you’re the one for me and i’m counting on you to put the pieces of me back together. ❛  how come we’ve both become a version of a person we don’t even like? ❛  i hope i learn to get over myself. ❛  everybody wants something, you just want me. ❛  why am i seeking approval from people i don’t even know? ❛  i need some substance in my life, something real, something that feels true. ❛  you get the brunt of it all cause you’re all i’ve got left. ❛  i hope in time we both will find peace of mind. ❛  sometimes, the road less traveled is a road best left behind. ❛  i didn’t get to go on and make new memories with him. there were just memories in a big storm. ❛  when i’m out at a party, i’m just excited to get home and dream about you. all night long. ❛  every time you text i want to get on the next flight home. ❛  maybe it’s the way you remind me of where i come from or how you make me feel beautiful. and then some. ❛  i want to be lost in you but not in this way. ❛  if you don’t choose to grow we ain’t ever gonna know just how good this could be. ❛  complacency is the worst trait to have. ❛  are you crazy? you ain’t ever had a woman like me. ❛  consistency is the gift to give for free and it is key to ever keep a woman like me. ❛  it’s where they make you feel powerful. that’s why you think i make you feel small. ❛  i put my heart on the line for the very first time because you asked me to and now you’ve gone and changed your mind. ❛  loving you was a breakthrough. i saw what my heart can really do. now someone else will get the love i have for you. ❛  hold on. you are still strong, love will soon come. ❛  i am so tired of battling with myself with no chance to win. ❛  let time be patient. let pain be gracious. ❛  every day feels like the road i’m on might just open up and swallow me whole. ❛  how do i feel so mighty small when i’m struggling to feel at all? ❛  sometimes loneliness is the only rest we get and the emptiness actually lets us forget. ❛  sometimes forgiveness is easiest in secret. ❛  i’m as lost now as i was back then. ❛  i’ll never learn if i never leap. ❛  i’ll always yearn if i never speak. ❛  to be loved and love at the highest count means to lose all the things i can’t live without. ❛  let it be known that i will choose to lose. it’s a sacrifice but i can’t live a lie. ❛  let it be known that i’ve tried. ❛  looking back, i don’t regret a thing. yeah, i took some bad turns that i’m owning. ❛  i’ll stand still and let the storm pass by. keep my heart safe til the time feels right. ❛  all your expectations of my love are impossible. ❛  my heart speaks in puzzle and codes i’ve been trying my whole life to solve. ❛  love is a game for fools to play. ❛  heartache, it’s inevitable. but i’m no good at doing it well. ❛  i can’t keep up when i keep changing my mind. ❛  i love me now, like i love him. ❛  i’m a fool for that. you know i’m gonna do it. ❛  i’d do it all again like i did it.

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