- you may know me by my wizard name, ālaevateinnā
- architect of cancred guile, contriver of plots, stager of shows
- he/him, han eller hen pƄ norsk
-my name (Kaj) is pronounced āKaiā, (rhymes with pie š„§) as j makes a y sound in most languages. My Chinese name is éŖę XuÄwĆ©n
- I take commissions! DM me to negotiate. I go based on how much time something is likely to take. I have an anime style, and a more realistic style. I also do animated pixel art, and can do landscapes and other elaborate backgrounds. If you want to donate to a good cause, provide me evidence of a donation, and I will make art for you that matches the amount donated.
- Iām interested in the fantasy genre, politics, physics and cosmology, animation and art generally, violin and music generally, and languages
-main blog was [REDACTED] but I had to ditch it, as my paedophile stalker knows it and I donāt want her to know Iām alive. I also no longer support a lot of the stuff posted there. my new main is @spoekelser
-fablehaven blog is @certain-death-awaits
- Iām trying to stop being so self-loathing, so if you see me acting like Iām hot shit, itās because I am
- I donāt actually think Iām undead, immortal, or anything else odd you see me talking about. I donāt have a pyromaniac archenemy called Emil. Itās a bit, I just like joking around.
- mbti: INTP-A/INTJ, house: slytherclaw, enneagram:8w7, Pisces, year of the Goat. I think all of of these āpersonality testsā are wrong and unhelpful. This is here so you can stop sending asks
Identity Politics Section
-chronically ill and physically disabled; I use a cane and, on really bad days, a chair. Iām allergic to strong UV light, so I canāt really go outside much during the day. this all has affected my social life profoundly, so Iām a bit out-of-touch.
- I have severe mental health issues. This should go without saying, but I donāt recommend everything I do/say. Iām just commenting about my own life. You have to make your own judgements. Iām autistic, but I like that about myself, the mental illness aspects are what they are, but I like who I am.
-I suppose you could call me genderfluid. in the sense that Iām actually a guy most of the time, and am agender 10% of the time.
-northern European/southeast asian (culturally hoa vietnamese but genetically chinese/japanese itās a long story) and white passing
- I was subject to some sexual trauma as a younger teen. I donāt owe you the story, but it was some paedo shit. Keep this in mind, as it colours my experiences. Donāt try to throw that ābut what about the REAL survivorsā shit at me, because I am a real survivor.
AKA the discourse section. This is here so you can leave if youāre uncomfortable with any of these, and so you know what to expect
-Iām an ace/aro inclusionist, I believe intersex people are part of the queer communist.
-I donāt see queer as inherently a slur- gay, homosexual, transsexual, etc are also used as a slurs, but theyāre not inherently dirty words.
- I donāt like comparing types of oppression, especially within the trans community. Itās not productive. We all know transfems are hated by society, and we should know transmascs are too. Please go outside if you think either group doesnāt experience significant oppression, or either group is able to meaningfully benefit from oppression against the other group. This all said, itās perfectly fine to express angst about feeling like others have it better than you, that they donāt āget itā, understand you or your struggle, that theyāre overreacting to their issues. But itās not always appropriate, and thereās a difference between feeling this and actually basing how you treat others on this.
- I am staunchly opposed to the modern state of Israel in its current form. I have person ties to the struggle of the Palestinian people, and have long held this belief. I do not think it is right to bother regular Jews about this. Same as it is not right to bother regular Muslims about atrocities committed by Saudi Arabia. If you canāt see the problem with doing either of those things, I canāt reason with you.
- My hot take on death and modern burial and embalming of bodies
- Iām neither an āantiā or a āpro-shipperā, but I donāt tolerate graphic depictions paedophilia or rape intended to be used by real-life perverts. Itās case-by-case. To me, thereās a clear difference between telling a story about abuse, and āshippingā an abusive relationship. That distinction doesnāt exist for everyone, so as a rule, I donāt really give a shit about ātoxicā ships. No opinion. Just donāt make that shit glamorous to kids, like they did in Twilight. If the source material is childrenās media, I donāt think that fan content normalising or glamourising abuse should be shared on the internet. Children theoretically can avoid seeing it, but they will see it, because of their own ignorance. I find RPF wrong because though a person can theoretically simply avoid reading it, they most likely will not.
- I have no opinion on kink. I donāt think Iām educated enough on the subject to have one. Obviously, consent is most important. But I donāt know what to make of more controversial kinks such as raceplay and ageplay. I support sex workers wholeheartedly. I believe the issue with sex work is present in any job under capitalism- which is to say, that capitalism is coercive in nature.
- I hate capitalism passionately, Iām a communist. Iām authoritarian leaning, but while I like Leninās writing, I donāt think Marxism-Leninism is the only answer, and I donāt support the CCP/PRC, the DPRK, or the former USSR. I donāt support the US government either, or (historically at the very least) NATO. While itās true that I donāt support any of these governments, I think asking civilians if they do is reductive and pointless, as we lack the power to meaningfully āsupportā such a structure.
- Iām ok with being a fan of any media, as long as youāre not actively fueling the spread of negative influences. Iām going to judge you based on your actual opinions, not the opinions that exist in media you consume. (Basically donāt give money to J.K. Rowling) If a Twilight renaissance or Destiel are woke, we can have another season of Hetalia. Just donāt actively give the fuckers money, if you can avoid it. There are genuinely much worse things- if youāre paying for a tv licence in the UK, youāre paying for the transphobic BBC. If youāre buying NestlĆ© products, youāre supporting NestlĆ©. Those are near unavoidable. My take is that you should try your best to avoid it when you can.
Interests/Former Interests
Note: Obviously, just because I enjoy something doesnāt mean I approve of it or think itās objectively good. A lot of these things are objectively bad, and I go so far as to refuse to pay royalties to their creator. A lot of these are interests from when I was like 12.
- Fablehaven, Dragonwatch, and Beyonders
- Jibaku ShÅnen Hanako-kun
- Re: Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu
- Kpop: Kingdom, LOONA, Tomorrow X Together, ENHYPEN, Dreamcatcher, The Boyz, Red Velvet, Victon, OnlyOneOf
- Nightmare (the visual kei band)
- Erased/Boku Dake Ga Inai Machi
- The Talented Mr. Ripley
- Interview With The Vampire
