thanks for the tag @miastideclock 🫶🏻

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ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

nope, but my birth name is a combination of a norse goddess and a word from norse mythology bc my mum is cool. my chosen name is just me going hm that's neat, i like that.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

if a tear counts as crying im depressed leave me alone, then last night. full on sobbing? whenever i last fought with my dad lol

DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

nope. my bloodline dies with me

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?

coughs,, yeah.

WHAT’S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?

ngl, i get super overwhelmed and my mind blanks. i'd say kindness maybe?

WHAT’S YOUR EYE COLOR?

blue/grey

SCARY MOVIES OR GOOD ENDINGS?

good endings, the world is scary enough as is.

ANY SPECIAL TALENTS?

i learn lyrics really fast and i can tell you in depth about painting restoration and cows hoof trimming? yay special interests

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

norway

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?

reading, painting, occasionally writing, spamming my friends with the most mind numbingly dumb memes

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?

my family has three dogs and two tortoises. i'm hoping to adopt a staffordshire bullterrier this year!

WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY / HAVE YOU PLAYED?

i used to do gymnastics, dance and horseback riding

HOW TALL ARE YOU?

164 // 5'4

FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

languages and psychology

DREAM JOB?

i don't dream of labour, but it'd be cool to restore old photos for a museum

ok, so I've been horribly behind on ask games, tag memes, and the like, so this is a small attempt to rectify it. thank you for the tags on various games, @jackvbriefs, @fw00shy, @moonstruckwytch, @ohdrarry, @softlystarstruck, @mintamintathings, @mxstyassasxin, @americanmoths, @wheezykat and possibly some others too. not tagging as I'm so behind, but if any of you folks have done one of these and not the other, have at it! likewise, if you want to give it a go, tag me when you share :D

& about me

Favourite colour: today, royal blue! Currently reading: wireless!! so many amazing wireless pieces! check out my faves here and here! Also, at a snail's pace, Days Without End by Sebastian Barry and The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt Last song: Make Out - Julia Nunes Last movie: Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse Last series: Good Omens rewatch, also Young Royals (amazing) Sweet, spicy or savoury: I have the biggest sweet tooth! Craving: A time turner would be great, honestly, or an extra few hours in the day. Also chocolate, always chocolate.

& fic writing

I was tagged by the lovely @killerqueenofalderaan (thank you!!)

stars or clouds / tony stark or steve rogers / buzzfeed unsolved or buzzfeed worth it / lavender or rose / chocolate or vanilla / latte or americano / police procedural shows or hospital shows / fast zombies or slow zombies / modern films or classic films / musicals or plays / hamilton or in the heights / blue lightsaber or green lightsaber / hats or headbands / queen or elton john / multicolored lights or white lights / pastels or neons / flowers or succulents / log cabin or hotel / sprinkles or cookie crumbs / ghosts or aliens / single book or book series / brunch or dinner / snow or leaves / jean jacket or leather jacket / tea cup or mug / galaxies or constellations

I was tagged by @killerqueenofalderaan (thanks lovey!)

Rules: tag people you want to know better!

Top 3 ships: Jedistormpilot, Claire and Jamie Fraser, Rebelcaptain

Last song: Like Real People Do, by Hozier

Last movie: Notting Hill

Reading: An Echo in the Bone, by Diana Gabaldon

3 random things I can see now: A hair clip, a textbook, and my favourite perfume

Met up with a friend for dinner last night and realized that I must be so annoying bc all I have to talk about is anime aside from a little bit of work related frustration (we’ll call it that to simply things) but also I guess it’s better than where I was a few weeks to a month ago

Within that time, I had a really bad episode of realizing my own mortality likely bc I was home alone for 3 weeks, intense and irregular bleeding, and a case of the nostalgia…

Well, I call it nostalgia bc I have no better word to describe it. I’ve always been someone who feels very deeply and as I’ve gotten older I continue to realize that other people don’t feel as intensely as I do at times. I don’t know if it comes from all of the media I’ve consumed (books, anime, music, etc), genetics, things I’ve experienced in life (family deaths, major surgery as a teen), and/or so many other things, but it’s something that actually makes me very emotionally ill and is now getting to the point where it almost manifests as physical symptoms. It comes and goes in waves, and is probably a feature of my garden variety of depression and anxiety. My problem is that I seek meaning when there doesn’t always need to be any, feel sadness creeping into my bones even during moments of happiness bc I know that moment won’t exist ever again.

I used to think that I had changed from who I was when I was a teenager, but at 31 I feel so much the same. Maybe I’m just getting back the feelings I was meant to experience in my late 20s but never did bc of the antidepressant, who can say for sure?

aaaa another chance to talk about music!!! thank you iron!!!💕

「 11. fav concept 」

this might be an unpopular opinion, but i don't think about concepts much. i think it has a lot to do with where i come from previously in the musical landscape, but i'm mainly interested in the music and themes don't cross my mind often. i know the music is (obviously) influenced by the theme for the group/cb, but it's not something i notice unless it's very overarching (like enha's vampire concept). i would like to learn more about lore in the future, but for now the only group's lore i've explored is skz's due to the in depth reviews i've done on them!

「 16. fav lyrics 」

oh man.. lyrics are arguably my favourite part of music, and i have a lot of lyrics i could whip out here - but the first one coming to mind is "if you wanna change, be not afraid" from moonshot by n.flying. as someone who has a very hard time facing change and trusting myself as a result of anxiety and being neurodivergent, it has become something i repeat to myself daily.

「 19. repeated song 」

according to my spotify, my current most repeated songs are still love you - yoo hweseung (adding this vid cos my man is insane live and jaehyun being a simp (same) makes me smile) jump - p1h leave - skz (arguably my favourite song by them..) also: hold on - seungmin (one of my all time favourites) volcano - han (my beloved) rewrite the stars - d.o. ft suhyun (i love this song and them both so much help)

「 38. song that grew on you 」

the only song that comes to mind atm is wait by dino, i didn't really vibe with it when it came out, but then a couple weeks ago i texted my friend in the middle of the night going wait fuck what is this song i've been walking around humming all day and now it's song no.8 on my on repeat playlist haha

1 , 4 , 5 , 6 , 8 , 9 , 17 , 30 , 35 , 39 🩷🩷🩷

THANK YOU 😭💕 strap in, homies..

「 1. fav bg 」

i'm bad at picking a single fav (this is gonna be a theme here..) so: skz, svt and enha! i'm dangerously close to adding p1h too..

「 4. ult biases 」

changbin (skz), seungkwan (svt), jake (enha), jongseob (p1h).