#about echo

//Like, her learning from him and then regaining some of her past life's habits, a bit of her past life's maturity, because before she was a guardian, she was a mom, a therapist test dummy, a pioneer in mental health on Eventide, and a wife. She knew *so much* in the 200 years she was alive before she became an Exomind and being around Lodi just brings all of that back and she doesn't know why.

//She doesn't know but she's not going to question it. Because as much as she likes being herself, she also likes being a better version of herself.

Once I’ve shortly said that I had hard time with her, so now I will extend this speech.

The very first experience with her in Mount Weather wasn’t good? I mean, she wasn’t good or bad then. But her attitude, survival, but also clearly a head. She was a strategist back then. And also quite limited one?

She helped Bellamy kill Lovejoy, and bless. Yet it wasn’t enough for me.

When we meet her again as she tricks everyone, even Bellamy who kinda freed her and her people from MW, she messes with Bellamy, Pike etc just to lead to blowing MW for Nia.

Now after her short story in 6x04 we know she owed her. Yet it kinda sucks that Gina happened to be there while this happened. It should mean something, give something bigger to the plot. But it didn’t.

Then, season 4, we know Echo was in the COL, and she threatens Clarke who saved their ass and if someone should have had a sword on their throat, it was Jaha. Not Clarke.

She attempted to kill Clarke a couple of times not entirely for Azgeda, yet the end of season 4 was purely for Azgeda and Roan. Loyal to him and not necessarily for the conclave. She gets banished anyway and back then I was glad. I hated her and the way she limited her view to Roan only.

The 100 made fun of loyal people, making Echo low-key dumb back then, not gonna lie. She manipulated Roan, who knew better. I think she could’ve been much better created back then.

And woah, after that banishment (double banishment if i may) we should feel sorry for her. But I only slightly did? She has built this wall herself. She played with the fate of human race and her clan. Out of loyalty, but wasn’t headed enough.

Echo loses a sight of where does she belong after all. We know it in s4 finale. I found it a weak move, because I had no idea who Echo was before this “spy for Azgeda” thing. If they had showed us a bit of her way earlier, maybe she would have been more acceptable for me.

Yet she helped spacekru to get up in the sky in the end, helped with the air on the ring. Kinda good sign.

Then season 5… Let’s not talk about her relationship with Bellamy then, please.

I remember that I kind off broke my wall for her, when she decided not to tell defectors’ names to Octavia. She chose to be banished for others not to be killed. Good move.

THEN this Raven Echo Shaw thing messed up with me. She betrayed Raven and went too deep in her spy role. Again, from loyalty. But to whom? She gets behind the wheel when Bellamy is in the battlefield and it’s fair. She is the head after all, been to battles and knows it from her life experience.

Fight with Clarke, btw not approving this Madi kidnapping, was on point. That’s how betrayed, almost-lost-my-lover-because-of-you Echo should react.

And then, their talk. AFTER that, I start to see her. I see who Echo is. What are her priorities. And she cooperates. She bonds with Clarke on some taking-care-of-Bellamy level. And also Echo sees who Clarke is, unlike others.

She seems to be very out of place sometimes, for example her totally interrupting story in 6x04 that should be left for other time. But after 6x06, I start to see her through. Better than through her story. Her acts and reacts speak for themselves.

For now, Echo is welcomed in the house and proves, that you don’t have to drag past behind you when you see what is here and now. She sees that Clarke cares while others are all over her. She was the last person to suspect that kind of understanding, but now it’s her.

What a glow up!

Mint

oh spry little dryad, spinning sprite, you drift through life as light as lion down. you are the chimes of churchbells and the laughter of faeries. gossamer and spider silk shine from your ribs. life is fleeting, you more than anyone should know that. something we love today may never see tomorrow's sun. you pride yourself on skipping through moments, soft and merry.

but you do not let your soul be tethered. is it for freedom or fear, sweetheart, that you do not let yourself be tamed? you are as fresh as and wild as bluebirds in snow, you smile at your problems before dashing away. hoping they will never catch up to you. but even Nike can't run forever. you have been hurt before. but that is life. you wish to never feel that way again, but regretfully I must tell you that is nothing short of impossible. life is but part sorrow part sun, you cannot have teacups until they are burned by the kiln.

oh I see the scars child, they shimmer down your chest, I see the pain in your eyes. but I also see the stardust. keep smiling, but allow tears also. you do not have to be solely wonder, fear, you are allowed to be bitter. so bite, and scream, and laugh, and love. that is what makes life worth living.

Tagged by: @belong-in-the-wilds

         ――   𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐄 𝐈𝐍.  At some point you experienced something that you thought was love and then it turned out to be an cheap imitation of the affection and sincerity that you wanted and deserved.   You believe you fell for the façade, but you didn’t, I promise you.   You believed in love enough that you believed you could shape insincerity into love if you just tried hard enough.   But love ――   real, genuine love ――   you have to try, but you don’t have to try to make something that isn’t love into love.   Keep believing in love,   because the beautiful kind that you try so hard to see in everything,   it exists for you.  You deserve more and you deserve the love that you want.

"i don't know how to accept this fact about me."

you have a secret. be it something going on in your life or a revelation about your personal identity, you've just learned something new about yourself and you feel wrong about it. you should be sure about this, but you're just not! even though you aren't comfortable with it, the secret feels important to you and it wants to break free. with the nature of the secret, though, you couldn't stand telling anyone.

𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐄𝐂𝐇 / 𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐑

# 𝙾𝙵 𝚂𝙿𝙾𝙺𝙴𝙽 𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙶𝚄𝙰𝙶𝙴𝚂   :   1 / 2 / 3+

𝚃𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝚅𝙾𝙸𝙲𝙴   :   high / average / deep.

𝙰𝙲𝙲𝙴𝙽𝚃   :   yes / sometimes / no

𝙳𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙰𝙽𝙾𝚁   :   confident / shy / approachable / hostile / other

𝙿𝙾𝚂𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙴   :   slumped / straight / stiff / relaxed.

𝙷𝙰𝙱𝙸𝚃𝚂   :   head tilting / swaying / fidgeting / stuttering / gesturing / arm crossing / strokes chin / er, um, or other interjections / plays with hair or clothing / hands at hips / inconsistent eye contact / maintains eye contact / frequent pausing / stands close / stands at distance.

𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐗𝐈𝐓𝐘.

𝚅𝙾𝙲𝙰𝙱𝚄𝙻𝙰𝚁𝚈   :   ⬜  ⬜ ⬛ ⬛ ⬛

𝙴𝙼𝙾𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽   :   ⬜  ⬜  ⬜  ⬜  ⬜

𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝚁𝚄𝙲𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙴   :   ⬜  ⬜  ⬛  ⬛ ⬛

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘.

𝙵𝚁𝙴𝚀𝚄𝙴𝙽𝙲𝚈   :    ⬜ ⬜ ⬜ ⬜ ⬜

𝙲𝚁𝙴𝙰𝚃𝙸𝚅𝙸𝚃𝚈   :   ⬜ ⬜ ⬜ ⬛ ⬛

𝐁𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐋𝐘.

arse. ass. asshole. bastard. bitch. bloody. bugger. bollocks. chicken shit. crap. cunt. dick. frick. fuck. horseshit. motherfucker. piss. prick. screw. shit. shitass. son of a bitch. twat. wanker. pussy.

𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐑 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓.

christ on a bike. christ on a cracker. damn. goddamn. godsdamn. hell. holy shit. jesus. jesus christ. jesus h christ. jesus h. roosevelt christ. lord have mercy. jesus, mary and joseph. sweet jesus.

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓

contractions or enunciation ? straightforward or cryptic ? jargon or toned ? complexity or simplicity ? finding the right word or using the first word that comes to mind ? masculinity, neutrality, or femininity ? formalities or abrasiveness ? praise or equivocation ? frankness or lies ? excessive or minimal hand gestures ? name-calling or magnanimity ? friendly or blunt nicknames ?

𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.

𝙳𝙾 𝙿𝙴𝙾𝙿𝙻𝙴 𝙷𝙰𝚅𝙴 𝙰 𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙳 𝚃𝙸𝙼𝙴 𝚄𝙽𝙳𝙴𝚁𝚂𝚃𝙰𝙽𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙾𝚁 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 ? almost always / frequently / sometimes / rarely / never.

𝙳𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁’𝚂 𝙿𝙾𝙸𝙽𝚃 𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝙰𝙲𝚁𝙾𝚂𝚂 𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙸𝙻𝚈 𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚈 𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙰𝙺 ? almost always / frequently / sometimes / rarely / never.

𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙸𝙽𝙸𝚃𝙸𝙰𝚃𝙴 𝙲𝙾𝙽𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂 ? almost always / frequently / sometimes / rarely / never.

𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙱𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙴𝙽𝙳 𝙲𝙾𝙽𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂 ? almost always / frequently / sometimes / rarely / never.

𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝚄𝚂𝙴 ‘𝚆𝙷𝙾𝙼’ 𝙸𝙽 𝙰 𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 ? yes / no / only ironically.

𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝚆𝙰𝙽𝚃𝚂 𝚃𝙾 𝙼𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝙰 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙿𝙾𝙸𝙽𝚃. 𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙳𝙾 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚈 𝚄𝚂𝙴 ? but / though / although / however / perhaps / mayhaps

𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙳𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙴𝙽𝙳 𝙲𝙾𝙽𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂 ? walk away / ask if that’s everything / say that’s everything / give a proper goodbye / tell their company they’re done here / remain quiet / they don’t.

𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙳𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙰𝙳𝙳𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚂 𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝚂 ? titles / first names / surnames / full names / nicknames.

𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚂𝙾𝙲𝙸𝙰𝙻 𝙲𝙻𝙰𝚂𝚂 𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳 𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝙰𝚂𝚂𝚄𝙼𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙱𝙴𝙻𝙾𝙽𝙶𝚂 𝚃𝙾, 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼 𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙰𝙺 ? upper / middle / lower.

𝙸𝙽 𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚆𝙰𝚈𝚂 𝙳𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙰𝚈 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙰𝙺 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝚃𝙾 𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝚂 ? accent / vocabulary / tone / level / politeness / brusqueness / it doesn’t.