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tagged by @aadmelioraa & @wildwren thank you for wanting to get to know me better the fact that this has been in my drafts for a month says uhhhh a lot actually.

four ships: Amanita Kaplan x Nomi Marks (Sense8), Valandil x Isildur (The Rings of Power), Katniss Everdeen x Peeta Mellark (The Hunger Games), Aldhelm x Aethelflaed (The Last Kingdom)

last played: The only thing worth fighting for by Lera Lynn

currently reading: picked up Pride & Prejudice again

last movie: Jennifer's body

craving: a good laugh and a good fuck tbh

Thank you for asking! No GIFs this time, and as per usual, some of these might be controversial because Uhtred is (one of) my blorbo(s), so reader discretion advised:

My NOTP for them:

Alfred/Uhtred. Both actors are amazing and individually I like both characters, but together they just don't work for me! I do see why others ship them though, the chemistry is 100% there, it's just not for me and that's okay!

(Though I have to say, I don't really like Mildrith/Uhtred either because she deserved better than that hotheaded, stubborn mess he was in season 1)

My BROTP for them:

I am drawing a blank here! I'm going with Pyrlig & Uhtred, they were interesting in season 5 and I loved their conversation!

My OTP for them:

FINAN/SIHTRIC/UHTRED. This is literally my OT3 in this entire show, I love them!

My second choice pairing for them:

Finan/Uhtred? I almost don't think it counts since I love any and all permutations of the OT3 above, but I have written Finan/Uhtred more often, I guess that counts...?

If not, Leofric/Uhtred.

My fluffy pairing for them:

If this means Fluff as in the AO3 tag, I actually think Sihtric/Uhtred can be hella wholesome. It's all about the character development here!

If this means Gen as in the AO3 category, I love Uhtred's found family with the Coccham Squad, Thyra, Brida, Ragnar the Younger, and Father Beocca but i do not know if found family is cheating here

My angsty pairing for them:

Leofric/Uhtred! Their dynamic is one of the best things of season 1 for me. I will always maintain that Leofric was Uhtred's gay awakening/first crush, it's evident even in the books! Their canon ending brings all the angst 😭

Shout-out to Gisela/Uhtred too, Lady you are missed 😔

My favorite poly ship for them:

Mmmm since I've already said my OT3 I'm going with Finan/Leofric/Sihtric/Uhtred! I've written these four a couple times, it's fun to imagine how things might've turned out had Leofric survived 😭

My weirdest pairing for them:

On the F/M side there's Aelswith/Uhtred. I do not know if they count as a rarepair or a crackship, but they could be so interesting!

i miiiiight’ve posted part of this before? idk. i got the idea for this one during the good girrls rewatch @pynkhues​ organized over the vague fuzzy period of time that was idk fall? winter? ANYWAY annie and greg have these lovely quiet beats in the middle of their nonsense where their history is so palpable and i am nothing if not an absolute SAP for poignant ex stuff so I wanted to do a series of snapshot moments within the eps with beats before, during and after their affair but i never got further than the first one. i might go back and finish it though bc i lowkey love them.

1x04

God, these quiet moments are the worst. 

The ones where the laughter trails off, fading into something quiet and fond, and Greg looks at her that way. The way where she can see through the years, and fights, and broken hearts, all the way back to the beginning when they were just stupid kids and she really, truly believed the dumb shit she’d think like I’m going to be with you forever. 

Except Annie knew it wasn’t even true back then because back then, she already knew forever was bullshit, and people didn't really mean it when they said that kind of stuff, and even if they did, even if they stayed, it wasn’t always a good thing.

And even back then she’d make some dumb joke, something to snap her out of it and break the moment. Put some space between them because back then, when he’d look at her like this, she’d see marriage and commitment and like, fuck if she knows, clean sheets and matching duvets. Brunch. A bunch of things and words and concepts that sound good on the surface but don’t actually mean anything underneath.

It’s the kind of shit that Beth’s all about; shit she’d tell Annie their mom was all about—or at least Beth used to before she (finally) realized Annie had less than zero interest in hearing what it was like in the good old days of stocked fridges and family dinners and parents. 

It didn’t matter anyway. That’s the kind of life Annie knows, knew, has always known she abso-fucking-lutely does not want. She may not remember what things were like before...just, before, but she’d seen what it was like after. She’d memorized the exact shape of the closed door to their mother’s bedroom, barely had to try to call to mind how the light fell across it at any given time of day—rippling over the panel inlay, glinting off of the doorknob, illuminating the tight seam along the door jam.

And she was right, wasn’t she? Beth had been bound and determined to follow in their mother’s footsteps—Annie’d known it even back then, had found the bridal magazines Beth had dogeared and shoved under her bed, had told her this was stupid, she was stupid, Dean was stupid, and he wasn’t going to fix anything—and, well. 

It’s not like Annie’d been wrong.

But, yeah. When Greg looks at her like that, all their history strung between them like polaroids pinned to a clothesline; it makes something in Annie twist up and ache because he’s looking at her like what they had was something real, but that’s almost worse than nothing at all because Annie knows it was a lie. 

So she makes that dumb joke and it snaps them out of it, same as it always does, and the remember what they’re here for: their kid, the one pretty great thing they’ve done between them. The one thing Annie’s managed not to screw up so far. And fuck, that’s not a safe line of thought either because Annie can feel it, that teetering on the edge sense of everything being moments from crashing down, and knows she’s about to fuck this up too.