Sep 8, 2023
I think the most fun part of losing a pregnancy has been having to repeatedly revisit records of all the ultrasounds & procedures as I battle with various hospital billing departments to prevent them from charging me an additional $1500+ on top of the thousands of dollars I’ve already paid. I just love reminiscing about that magical time I learned I was pregnant and then was informed I would bleed to death if I didn’t have surgery that day to end the pregnancy 🤍 I still can’t really get my head around the idea that when a bad thing happens to you that causes you agonizing grief they will still make you empty your savings and rack up your credit card balance to pay for the privilege 🤍🤍 american health care boy oh boy
#IUI tag#I have my next ultrasound on Monday#I am really Doing Fine on the whole right now I just feel periodic pangs when something makes me think about it#but I think if anything goes wrong with the ultrasound I am going to hardcore spiral#I keep having dreams that I go in for the appt and she tells me I missed my window this month#or that the ovulation meds stopped working#but then when awake I am also gripped by the terrible fear that I will produce too many eggs and one of them will get stuck in the other tub#and I’ll have to have the surgery again#I just don’t think I can Do That you know like if they take my other tube and there are just no more (in country) options#aaaaaaaaaaghh
