#a9496

Hey stay safe okay? As I’m worrying about my own well being, I’m also worrying about everyone else, especially my parents since they’re so old.

You will always come to mind, I don’t even know if you’re doing well over there but everything has been pretty hectic lately. Pretty crazy how things are going, I would never expect we would be in a pandemic in our lifetime. I just want to say let’s get through this safely. I’d love to see everyone safe by the end of this crisis. Please take care of yourself. There’s so many ways how the media pumps negative information into our minds. Like where are the articles about good news, the recoveries?? I feel brainwashed, every night my anxiety spiking and I can’t even sleep because I’m worried I’ll catch a case of the virus. On top of that my work is essential because we’re military related, so having the idea of social distancing/isolation and having to go to work really triggers me. I go to work scared of touching anything unless I disinfect the area. And when I get home I’m afraid that I’m carrying the virus and passing it to my parents. I really don’t know what to do, I guess I can say only time will tell. As of right we just have to do our part to stay as clean as possible. Please take care, I worry about you. Whatever you do, makes sure it’s something that will brighten your day, even for a moment. We need more happiness in this world. Feels like a prison now, no matter how free you are, even going to buy groceries is pretty scary now, I don’t even want to touch anything.

Sorry I have a lot say, rambling about random things. I’m just typing as I go. I’m just concerned for your well being, physically and especially your mentally. You don’t want to turn into me, having all of these anxiety problems, it feels like PTSD and I don’t even know what PTSD feels like, but I get triggered easily when I have to do things that requires my hands. I always have hand sanitizer now, dry AF hands.