#a1ad

anyone out there with a lung disability got any tips to avoid going fucking stir-crazy while avoiding being outside? this extended bad air quality is jumping on my last extremely frayed nerve.

“You shouldn’t breathe through your mouth cause it’s worse for you-“ I have a genetic condition where I can’t get enough air through my nose into my lungs. I have to breath through my mouth to prevent discomfort. Idgaf if it’s gonna make me look weird I’d rather try and keep my already unhealthy lungs as healthy as they can be.

Today is a day where I feel like a failure at being anyone's support, let alone my husband's, who has just gone thru a liver transplant, and wish I had someone here to support me. But then again I am also over stimulated and exhausted so the thought of anybody walking into this room and demanding my attention makes me want to blast off into outer space. Nothing is wrong, just normal post surgery stuff with pain and swelling getting in the way of completing PT clearance and getting out of here. I wish they wouldn't have given us so much false hope that it would be this weekend bc I really doubt it. And then I realize it's stupid to even be upset and let down bc the average stay is 2 weeks and today is only 1 week. I'm so tired tho today I could cry. I could cry anyway. See husband in pain? Wanna cry. See something emotional? Wanna cry. Get frustrated? Wanna cry. Hungry? Cry. Annoyed? Cry. I'm not sad. I'm just overwhelmed. It's all very weird, to be so happy and so everything else. And all the pain and trauma from the past few months just don't get erased overnight. This is just an experience I can't explain right now. We've been sitting here talking to each other trying to sort some of it out and we're both just like....cry. Ha.