a-blue-bubble:Ā I really loved this about the book as well, it truly is such a good feeling to see this character who I love struggling with the same thing as me. Also, Toby takes care of him in the meantime, as best he can. It's present in the show but more obvious in the book, the way Toby reacts to Jim's anxiety.
That lets you know Jimās been struggling with anxiety for a decent amount of time too, for Toby to be able to recognize when Jimās getting overwhelmedĀ and know how to help him.Ā Those indicators areĀ familiar to Toby, and that can take years to learn and familiarize yourself with.
And that makes it better imo. Itās rare to see mental illness even suggested in an adventure story, but when it is itās usually after traumatic events befall the character. Jimās anxiety is present before anything even happens. Itās just there, while heās leading a normal life, and itās beautiful. ThatāsĀ really relatable and validating and important, I think, because thatās how it is for a lot of people and thatās not the kind of representation you usually get in stories like this.
Man, I wouldāve loved to have a character like Jim to connect with when I was younger. The Adventure Begins novel is the closest Iāve ever seen an author get to accurately depicting persistent anxiety. Jimās head is a mess. Heās distracted, tangled in his thoughts, dreading the day before it even begins, constantly frustrated that theĀ āanxious voiceā wonāt leave him alone, and frequently trying to escape it all, his mind, his thoughts, himself. And that isĀ exactly what itās like. Every single day. Dealing with that. While trying to live your life. And thatās so fucking validating to see.Ā
Itās also super validating that a published author picked up on Jimās anxiety in the show and seemed to take the time to accurately portray that anxiety on paper. I almost want to know if they just observed his character on TV, or if they also consulted the Trollhunters team before writing him in a way that heavily suggests he has an anxiety disorder. I know itās probably a long shot, but I hope its confirmed in the show, that that representation is made official. I would legitimately cry.
Jim struggling with anxiety gives a heavier meaning to the grit-shaka too, especially after reading the novel and seeing how desperately he wants his anxiety to go away. To have that impossible wish fulfilled, God, heās so stupidly happy. āLose myself? I found myself, and I wasnāt even looking for me!ā Heās on Cloud Nine.Ā But heās looking for relief in the wrong place. Itās like being heavily drugged, more so because Jim doesnātĀ remember what happened when he finally comes to, and heās scared. āToby!Ā Where am I? Whatās going on?āĀ
(I heard in the Guide thing Jim tries to get his hands on another grit-shaka even after what happened, and if thatās true thatās like. Really alarming. He wants to be totally unaware of whatās going on and what heās feeling except for joy and confidenceĀ because whatever heās normally feeling, that crushing anxiety and fear, is that bad, that unbearable for him...Someone help him.)
But it also makes every good thing Jim does more powerful. That heās able to do all these great things despite struggling with anxiety, thatās empowering to watch. Anxiety is a constant battle with yourself. He has to fight that internal battle with himself every day along with external battles with external enemies, and he does it. Not without stumbling and panicking and failing sometimes, but that neverĀ deters him. He proves himself a hero, and thatās so great.Ā I hope the kids watching who can relate to him take comfort in knowing they can be heroes too.