- hi (a year later) ♡
So... where do we start?
Gosh, I'm tearing up just thinking of what to say. 🥹
Hi, beautifuls.👋🏾 Long time no see, huh?
I feel like I've been avoiding this blog for a while, both parts due to the absolute wreck that has been my life in the past year, along with just not really knowing what to say to you lovely people.
A few years ago, around the end of 2022, I, a very lost and scared adolescent, started this page because of one idea. I had watched an emotionally impactful movie and could not do anything before I got something down on a page. I was met with so much kindness, love, and support, and for all the times I've been told that a work of mine brought comfort to people, writing and contributing something that felt so real actively kept me going. I cannot overstate just how much this page has built me and kept me alive.
Now, I'm feeling a bit too close to adulthood, with so many hopes and dreams, I can only imagine younger me is so proud. But with that growth and progress, there have been some excruciating growing pains. I try not to be dramatic about that type of thing (we're all going through a lot of things), but I've found that not acknowledging the sheer amount I've endured hasn't helped me in any case, so might as well admit it.
With everything, I just couldn't put my all into anything. Breathing was just about all I could muster up the energy for, and writing and creation started leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. And seeing as the support here never wavered (seriously, I was shocked to see I still get notes on a weekly basis on my stuff), I didn't want to grow resentful of something I love so much. So, I left.
I contemplated deleting the blog, just to block out the reminders of what I was avoiding, but I think I always knew that wasn't going to happen. There's too much love here for that.
Anyway, skip a year, and life is still actively being a menace. But, I've grown a lot, and somehow, that doesn't feel so heavy anymore. I've spent the last few months working on other projects. Developing my writing, finally starting to see that I'm not so bad at this whole thing.
I won't keep you all hostage for too much longer, I promise. My main message through all of this, is that for the past few years, and honestly a lot longer than that, I've seen how ugly life can get. I've seen how hard it can be to keep moving. But I've also seen how other people's creations have had such large impacts on me. Figuratively and literally pulling me out of the trenches.
And for all I've learnt from this, I want to be able to start giving that back again. I thought of starting another blog for this, but I have too many of those already, and this one is good enough to host more comfort and support to you all. Especially with how ugly the world can feel on the bad days.
The black panther ladies will always have a space here. I may not be sure of the consistency of content regarding them currently (Like the next few months), but I would really like to expand on the people I write for. Other woman/non-men, that you may have interest in getting X Reader content for.
I'm looking into more series type writing, establishing longer storylines, and all such things on occasion. So with my long awaited return, I implore you to drop any new characters you might have fallen in love with and would not mind being added to my roster of stories. (This includes other fandoms btw) Asks are always open, and I will actually be looking at them again. 😅
I guess this is the part where I say have a wonderful day, everyone.
I love you all! 🌺
- A
