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Him: Babe babe babe

Me: Oh?

Pero mas masakit kapag sinukuan ko siya

May pinagdadaanan siya ngayon at alam kong kailangan niya ako

Sa akin lang siya kumukuha ng lakas ng loob

Hindi ko hahayaan na masaktan siya ng ganito

Sobra na yung sakit na nararamdaman niya

Kung pwede lang. Kung pwede ko lang akuin lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman niya gagawin ko

Ang hirap din sa parte ko dahil nakikita ko sa kanya yung dating ako

Gusto ko siyang tulungan pero hindi ko alam kung paano

Basta nandito lang ako sa tabi niya

Hindi ko siya iiwan

Maybe you will question me why the title of this blog is like that. First and foremost, first time ko maligawan (oo na choosy ako kiber haha). Syempre papaligaw ako dun sa taong gusto ko din ‘di ba? HAHA. So ayun, may nanliligaw sa akin ngayon and hindi ako nagpapadaan sa mga sweet words niya. Actions speak louder than words but this guy who is currently courting me is a kind of guy who can do both. Meaning he has actions, he has also his words. I can say that he is sincere and I can feel that he really cares about me. Last night, I can’t fvcking breathe and my heart beat isn’t normal. Dahil wala akong mapagsabihan na iba, I told him what I feel because I am fvcking not okay. He was so worried about me and kahit he was with his barkada, he drove to the place where I am but the funny thing is hindi naman talaga niya alam kung saan so it was way epic. Tho malapit naman ako dun sa dorm na napagkamalan niya na dorm ko (about 2 streets away basta malapit lang). Hindi ko maexplain yung feeling na all your life walang nagcacare sayo (I mean aside from parents and bestfriends ofc). Yung care and concern na nanggagaling sa taong special para sayo. Nahihiya nga sa kanya kasi he waited for me to reply but because I was sleeping sa sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko ay hindi ko siya nareply. He waited for an hour. I was saying sorry to him but he told me it’s okay basta okay na ako, okay na yung pakiramdam ko. He text and call me everyday and the happiness I feel rn is beyond measure. I hope hindi siya mapagod and he will stay no matter what. He promised me that he will never gonna leave because I’m worth the wait.

To you, A.

Thank you for your patience. I am so thankful that you came into my life. Thank you for always making me feel special. I don’t know what I’ve done to my past life to deserve someone like you. Sianbi ko sayo na “deserve ba kita? deserve ko ba ‘to? deserve ko ba lahat ng ginagawa mo for me?” I keep on questioning myself kasi hindi ako sigurado. Ayokong umasa ka ng walang kasiguraduhan dahil alam ko ang pakiramdam na umasa sa wala pero hindi ka umaasa sa wala okay? Nauna ka lang nahulog pero susunod ako. Hindi man ngayon pero alam ko na alam mo na malapit na. Inamin ko naman sayo na nalilito pa ako sa feelings ko for you ‘di ba? But you already have a place in my heart already. Hindi pa kita mahal pero sana mahintay mo ako. Sana hindi ka mapagod.