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when i was having dinner and like, chewing food while it hurt i got super scared of the surgery... i hate doctors and hospitals and needles and all that, and removing teeth only needs local anesthetics, i can't deal with the fact that im gonna be awake when they're operating...

i started crying and i told my parents and they said its going to be fine and they tried to make me calm down, and the thing i felt very happy with that... saying this feels kinda silly but i always think im overreacting and that my brain is taking everything out of proportions and i always expect people to ignore or make fun of the things that worry me. i didn't want to say anything bc i thought my dad would find it funny and would tell me to ‘man up’ or whatever...