โ ย you were the one person i thought i could always count on. why did you have to let me down?ย โ
๐ ย * ย โ ย ๐ฌ๐ด๐ถ๐ป๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต๐จ๐ณ๐ณ๐ ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐น๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ซ ๐บ๐ฌ๐ต๐ป๐ฌ๐ต๐ช๐ฌ ๐บ๐ป๐จ๐น๐ป๐ฌ๐น๐บ.
" I--" the words stuck in his throat, opening his mouth a few times to try and force them to come out. pulling his bottom lip in between his teeth, chewing on it for a few seconds that seemed to last hours. he could've brought up any excuse he'd used before, even if it was true they all would've fallen short. letting someone he cared about down was bad enough. letting someone who he had let into his life, someone who shared in his pain and struggles? that was as bad as any hit he could've taken.
"...saying I'm sorry is just--I know it's not enough." and there it was, the urge to push her away. the second he shows the usual shortcomings of himself, even self-inflicted ones...he wants to leave. drawing in a breath to try and calm that urge, " I didn't--I didn't mean to. the last thing I wanted to do was--be here. just...I don't know what to say."
