#9252021

i am plagued with a certain restlessness

i want to take long walks with you 

and go somewhere 

where nobody can find us

lay my head in your lap and look at the stars

get donuts at 2 am and share chocolate milk

kiss in the bluish glow of the streetlamps

share earbuds 

whenever we’re apart

i find myself looking forward to when i get to see you again

i wish i could forget dates

it’s been about 5 days, and we’re both doing alright

we’re good in bed together, but maybe we’re better as friends for now

we ate together today

and in between the inside jokes, mouths wide open, our sides hurting from the laughter

my mind goes back to the night we first met 

in your room, 2 weeks ago

a dim light guiding the path from your mouth to mine

you tell me about your day 

and i stare at your lips

thinking about the way your stubble felt on my chin

and how i thought it was so hot when you asked for my consent

your breath against my neck

i tell you about my day

and wonder if you’re thinking about me too

the way my breasts felt in your hands

my fingers running through your hair as you kissed my stomach

the way i held you after

does it cross your mind, too?

or am i being really weird right now?

“Is everything okay?”

you ask, snapping me out of my contemplations

i stare at my plate, “Sure.”