#90816

You ask why will eye laugh about it & my response is because the jester entity now has a new best friend 4ever & ever happily ever after in the astral plane.

And then it gave me this kind of thought, Kung hindi ba ko umalis, ganun pa rin kaya? Kung hindi ba ko umalis, mas strong kaya? Kung hindi ako umalis, anong magbabago, anong mawawala at anong mananatili? Kung hindi ako umalis, how broken will I be? It sucks when you're full of regrets, but at the same time full of relief inside you. Yung hindi mo alam kung anong dapat mong maramdaman kasi naiipit ka sa mga "If Only's" mo, na hindi mo naman dapat talaga maramdaman kasi "It's done. It's over." The worst thing is, I think is when you're starting to doubt yourself, because of the last decision you made. Parang, "tama ba talaga yung ginawa ko? How can I prove to myself that it's the right decision when I can't see any signs of improvement? Parang wala namang nagbago. So bakit ba ko nagkaroon ng ganong desisyon? Bakit? Para saan?"

estamos condenados a consumir y esperar, esperar para consumir, consumir para esperar para consumir, etc