#9-22-16

Im in shambles but I just smile 

everyone in this school is so loud it’s making my anxiety go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is exhausting and my brain makes poor choices.

This needs to be the last time I ever go through something like this. I can't handle it anymore.

Well its a little after midnight so I guess technically I'm now at 40 weeks and 5 days. CK and I spent a few hours at the hospital today which was absolutely the worst. I warned him my OB was probably going to send us today for the nonstress test but of course he still got cranky about it. They had me hooked up to machines and then a dreadfully long ultrasound to see if little man is normal and active (it was basically 45 minutes of me pointing at dark spots on the screen and asking 'what's that?' lol). It was probably the most uncomfortable I've been my whole pregnancy, having to lay flat on my back for so long. I almost puked a couple times which the ultrasound tech attributed to the amount of pressure I was putting on the nerves and what not in my back. However, everything was normal and they gave the OK for me to go till the 26th! I have another apt with my OB on Friday and I guess that's when they'll schedule me. Pretty excited for Lincoln and CK to share a birthday. Pretty excited to finally have my baby here. Just excited in general really lol.