#8.18.18

TODAY (and hopefully tomorrow) IS GOING TO BE A STRESS FREE WONDERFULLY CREATIVE AND PRODUCTIVE DAY

I repeat:

stress free

wonderfully creative

productive

I won’t have a lot of online time next week between the 21st and 28th so I’m attempting to catch up between now and Monday.

Finish Photoshopping Malec

Pick scenes for my Sabriel Big Bang and layout

Catch up on Getting Domestic

Birthday art

Random pics

8.18.18 <3

Okay so before I begin my lil story time of when I met Taylor, I just wanted to thank all of you for all the love n support you’ve shown me the past 6 months. None of this would have possible if it weren’t all for you rooting for me so thank you thank you thank you<3 Lets start!!

So I got my DM from TN on Thursday (8/16) around 11:30pm which is so late?? But I ended up getting 4 hours of sleep that night since I had school the next day. Fast forward to Saturday. I wake up so nervous, on the verge of throwing up. It was finally sinking in that I was finally going to have my chance with Taylor after all these years of supporting her and watching from the sidelines. I get to the stadium around 4ish and I pick up the magical paper at will call which I proceed to tweet about and probably break twitter. Who knows, I could not even go on twitter because it kept crashing. I went to the section where we had to meet up and thats where I met up with Sam, Geno n Sami (I love all 3 of em with all my heart.) so, when security lets us backstage, the 5 of us (Sam, Geno, Sami n my sister) wait for everyone to go so we could be at what we thought was the end of the line but little did we know …. It was the front of the line LOL.

We walk into Rep Room and it is SO much smaller in person like it looks so big in pictures but its?? So?? Small?? Anywho. There is food n drinks n the infamous throne but I walk in looking for the polaroid cameras to take pictures n immediately the TN guy tells us to line up in front of the curtain n i was like OH SHIT ITS HAPPENING. I’m third in line. Geno n Sam are first n then Sami n then me. I saw Taylor when they opened the curtain for Geno n Sam and Sami n I started BAWLING bc she looked so beautiful oh my God. She looks so fake but in the prettiest way possible. Sami n I are like comforting each other bc our moment is so soon. Few minutes later after Sam, Geno n Sami, its my turn.

I walk in and Taylor’s face just lights up. She goes “Hiiiiii” and gives me a big ol hug. Once I pull away from the hug, she looks at me, making eye contact this entire time and her tone changed. She said “I’m so sorry for everything you’ve gone through. No one should ever go through something like that.” and I start BAWLING and I couldnt even say anything so she goes and gives my sister a hug and says hi to her. My sister starts talking and telling Taylor how this is the happiest she has seen me in MONTHS n Taylor said “I feel so honored to know I make you so happy” and my sister was explaining how that day is a blur to her and how much this means to her that Taylor wanted to meet me. Taylor then says “Oh no, I can’t even imagine but thank you for giving her so much support that she has still made it this far. I’m so happy to see her [referring to me]” Taylor comes back to me and I manage to speak to her. I kept saying “Oh my god you are so pretty” bc she is absolutely beautiful in person. I tell her how much she means to me and how much I love her. “I love you. SO much” she said after I rambled for a quick minute. She then cuts me off and says “I am SO glad to see you, oh my god” and says it in the most sincere way possible like I knew she meant that. She keeps repeating “Im so happy you’re okay and you’re here with me right now” and I just kept crying. I told her I didn’t expect her to see my posts on Tumblr n she goes “what!!!! Of course I saw it!!” n it meant everything to me. My voice kept on cracking but I could tell she was really paying attention to everything I was saying. I said “Taylor you have no idea how much you mean to me. The last 6 months have just been a never ending nightmare and you and your music has just been there for me at my darkest time and I can’t thank you enough for everything” and she looks at me with what seemed like tears welling up in her eyes and says “I feel so happy to know that this concert and meeting me was what got you through these past 6 months.” and I kept saying how I would always go to her and her music because she has really been one of the only constant people in my life and she said “Im so glad that I could be someone in your life that has helped you through all of this. That means SO much to me” and gave me another hug. I proceeded to tell her how hard senior year has been already considering I just started last Wednesday. She looked completely heartbroken when I was telling her just how hard it has been for me and kept putting her hands over her heart n putting a lil pouty face. I explained to her the whole fire drill incident that happened on Thursday n I explained how I had flashbacks to the day n had a really bad panic attack later that day and she looked so sad. She kept saying how sorry she was and how much she loved me. “I can’t imagine how that must be like, Im so sorry. I love you.” I told her I had been looking forward to this concert since I bought the tickets in December during the pre sale and she looked so happy that I had bought it so early. I then proceeded to say “the boost system? A MESS” and she laughed while going “oh my god” Remind you, she has held eye contact this entire time. She then says “how about we taking a picture? A group one?” and then I said “Oh I was wondering if I could get one alone and then one with my sister but if not its okay” and the TN guy cuts in before Taylor could say anything and says “no sorry its one picture per group.” so my sister agreed beforehand that if they said no to the 2 pictures, she would let me have the solo picture because she knew how much it meant to me. So I asked Taylor “can we do the hug with the holding hand?” and she goes “of course” while smiling. I ask her if she has any idea for the b stage song and the picture is being taken so she waits to answer. We take the picture and then Taylor quickly goes “come, lets take a group picture now” while holding her arm out for my sister. She then go back to my original question and goes “the 3 girls before you [referring to sam, geno n sami] all requested the same song…” and taylor and i both said “breathe?!” and taylor goes “yeah!” so i lit up and immediately said “please can you sing breathe tonight? That song means so much to me taylor” and she said “okay...i’ll think about it but dont tell anyone!! Dont post it on social media!!” and i said of course i wont, i promise!! I say I love you to her again and I give her another hug while she says “I love you too!!” and I get my autographed paper and leave.