#7years

For the longest time, I'd go back and forth in my mind.

Trying to understand what it was that I did wrong.

You made me out to be a villian when the villian was you all along.

I spoke the truth, trying to understand it.

Every word that came out made me feel like shit.

I didn't want anyone to think of you badly.

But the way you made me feel was oh so sadly.

You've told me time and time again you'd never speak ill on my name.

But what you don't know is I've heard all the rumors and it just wasn't the same.

When I spoke about you, I told my part that I played.

I held myself accountable when I knew I shouldn't have stayed.

Nothing was ever your fault, because you were the one who was betrayed.

Ah, yes. You were and I admit to that.

But did you ever look at what you did that made me feel the same?

I spent years, 7 long years trying to put back the pieces you took.

Every new relationship i entered left me shook.

Were they going to treat me just the same as you?

Move on to someone/thing better when they found out I was just a fool?

You moved on so gracefully with the one I didn't have to worry about.

Every chance I tried to move on but I'd cry and cry because you're the one I never wanted to live without.

I loved you from the day I met you, I never wanted anyone more.

You played with my heart for years until you decided I was what you could adore.

You told me it was because my hair was longer and I'd become more your type.

We spent 2 years together, my feelings getting stronger until you said sike.

I wasn't what you wanted, you just loved how much I loved you.

Till someone better came along and you tore my heart in two.

You say it was me who betrayed you, but was it I who betrayed you first?

When you were the one who threw my heart in the dirt.

I saw the way you'd talk about her, your face would light up.

It left me feeling broken and stuck.

Should I hold on to someone who no longer wanted me?

That's just selfish, when I knew exactly where it was you wanted to be.

You cried to me, saying you didn't want it to end.

But I knew from the start it would've been better off just staying your friend.

I saw the potential of you and I, hoped it could be made into reality.

I can see now you and I were never truly meant to be.

I'll love you forever unconditionally.

I must do it from afar

Being in your life will rip me apart.

I'd just started putting the pieces back together after 7 long years.

But I saw you in my dreams and you met me with tears.

I realize you can care for some one from a distance.

Doesn't me you have to be all up in their business.

I wish you well and hope you get where you need to in life.

I know now I was never the one meant to be your wife.

I always loved you more and I used to think that made me weak.

I know now it's the best thing about me.

You've helped me realize who it is I'm meant to be.

I thank you for all the lessons and being my one first true love.

But I must fly away now like a mourning dove.

I was never yours and you were never mine.

Sometimes I wish we could turn back time.

To the first time I met you with what I know now.

I'd walk away and leave that town.

I'll love you forever.

And maybe in the next life will meet again and all will be well.

I won't fall so deeply and make myself look like a clown.

I just wanted to say thank you, but this is goodbye, for now.

Happy 7th years of The Judge, @RobertDowneyJr and Susan Downey!!!

I was just a little boy // We were too young

Two hearts in one home // Come so far from Princess Park

They don't know about us // Is it so wrong that you make me strong?

Could we ever be enough? // They said a little love is better than none.

Telling those stories we already told // I've ran out of energy playing someone I'm supposed to be

We're not who we used to be // We're sleeping on our problems like we'll solve them in our dreams

Never thought giving up would be so hard, God I'm missing you and your addictive heart // Don't call me baby again, it's hard for me to go home and be so lonely

I'm falling again, I'm well aware I write too many songs about you // You just keep on building up your fences, but I've never been so defenceless

I couldn't want you anymore // Wasting my time when it was always you

I'll make this feel like home // We made it, We'll be alright.

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