#73017

Eye used 2 give a fuck about these political games but now eye see the truth. All eye care about is their character.

I really hate the fact that I can only rely on music to get me through the day, that only two songs can keep me hanging on for a couple more days when I am ready to end it all. Not even the thought of leaving my family, friends, or animals phases me anymore. The thought of never hearing those two songs again, hurts me more than anything. I wish it wasn't this way. I should feel absolutely horrible when these thoughts creep their way into my mind and the only thing that keeps me hanging on to my life is those two songs that mean so much more to me than the people in my life which is so selfish of me but I can't help it. I don't know why, I wish I did though. I wish I could stop the way I think or hang onto meaningless things when I have so many people I could cling onto when things get rough instead of two songs that don't do anything but numb the pain for about 6 minutes all together.