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This one's part 4. I guess I'm undeserving, of relationships that matter to both sides the same, so I'll feel that internal flame/ Continue to burn me, as I pursue it, without only prospects of pain/ Or someone looking to gain, and then remove themselves/ Or I misconstrue, when it negatively impacts my health/ Or I get pissed, when it negatively impacts my wealth/ Without doing shit else, maybe I should wonder, if this shit sells/ Reality is, I don't care if it does, I'm going to be contrite as hell/ About ignoring things for so long, not giving people anything to hold onto/56 Because there's only so much you can convey in a hug, still wondering about this thing called love/ Still asking myself, because everything I love seems to lose value/ And everyone I love, speeds towards death, life's not a thing I value/ All that much, living on borrowed time, experiencing the deterioration/ In my body and mind, yet, around others, I have to act like I don't mind/ Like it doesn't bother me, when my main priority is pain management/ Because I'm more concerned with dying comfortably, than building relationships/ I suppose, that makes it hard for me to relate to shit/64 #aaronglover #part4 #16bars #misterhustleshit #64bars https://www.instagram.com/p/CZMBaYAuyuE/?utm_medium=tumblr

This one's part 3. Like 9 and 18, for examples, have I even had a good Thursday/ As the day of my birth, can't say that I have/ Maybe 93, because the others have been crap/ Whether it's getting stood up, death, being sucker punched, getting my heart broken, or simply being injured/ It really hasn't been in the cards for me, to simply have glee/ Can't really drown my sorrows, even though I needed to see/ Almost didn't go outside, my day drinking was peace/ Thinking about revenge, thinking about confrontation, thinking about the we's/40 I already made commitments to, drinking until I could see/ The value of keeping those, over the value of me/ The fights I have with myself, that y'all never see/ Why you think I wear so much red, because I fucking bleed/ I feel a lot of anger, but all that y'all can see/ Is someone, that never lets folks in, without giving reasons to be/ I'm not really trusting, but I'm not afraid to be betrayed, I just don't want to be/ And my wisdom, usually guides me correctly, and I get screwed when I ignore it, being unreserved me/48 #aaronglover #part3 #16bars #misterhustleshit #64bars https://www.instagram.com/p/CZMBFBIOsID/?utm_medium=tumblr

This one's part 2. Like the pain in my eyes, was just simple misting/ And not garnering support, was just my missing/ The mark with my words, even my cursive's getting curved/ It feels absurd, can't even have a birthday without the hurt/ And when you do for others anyway, because that's what they deserve/ Yet doesn't heal the wounds, then, all you feel is the hurt/ Coming back to earth, thought it was good, being down to earth/ But it's hard to be, when these meniscuses make it hard to leap, hard to land, without all of this hurt/24 Seeing a memorial for my friend, flowers from people who ignored her/ Or treated her like a jerk, that shit really hurts/ Didn't go to the wake weeks later, just took the day to hurt/ Tried to write, and simply couldn't do it, the impetus inside of me was ruined/ Tears in my eyes, kind of make it hard to concentrate, along with a splitting headache/ Thinking about a wake, thinking about I'd awake/ To that, as my first moment as 31, thinking, of course it'd be this way/ Historically, my birthday's tend to have some of my worst days/32 #aaromglover #part2 #16bars #misterhustleshit #64bars https://www.instagram.com/p/CZMA5rJO_u9/?utm_medium=tumblr

I'm back. Wrote 64 bars, splitting them up into four parts. Listen if you want. If not, all good, this is more for me anyway. This one's part 1. Had to find reason, find motivation/ Seeing bullshit in my eyes, a lot of hating/ A lot of waiting, a lot of wasting, time on deceit/ Folks, that couldn't provide receipts, reminders for me/ That being real, doesn't have that same appeal/ When the masses couldn't give a fuck, about how you feel/ About how you heal, this introspection's for real/ I don't write for clout, I'd rather do without/8 Why I kept my pen holstered, all these months in doubt/ Of whether I should bring it back, my inner thoughts sounding kind of wack/ Wondering what the fuck's with that, folks don't even care about facts/ It's all about the feel, all about the reel/ Highlights and fiction, obfuscated by diction/ Asking what am I getting, out of rhythm/ When being around these people, makes me feel out of rhythm/ Like what I've written, makes no difference/16 #aaronglover #part1 #16bars #misterhustleshit #64bars https://www.instagram.com/p/CZMAu46uNh0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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