#6.18.13

I just moved in with some old family friends

the woman never shuts up

the man never talks about anything meaningful

i hide from both of them because i otherwise i drown in their words

I just started working with my best friend's dad

he started smoking weed with me

he told me he knew when he met me 15 years ago i was special

but one hell of a difficult child

I just got into a car wreck with my sister

and told her to lie about it bc i thought my parents would kill me

she told them and they told me to apologize to her and

that they'd already forgiven me

I just realized i think like im constantly doing a science experiment

and wondered how i hadn't noticed this before

especially when my entire thought process has basically forever been dedicated to figuring out how other people work

because they sure as fuck dont work like me

I just fell in love with a beautiful boy

who's a total gentleman 

but he's not mine to have 

and i can't justify my happiness for her heartache

even tho he's the first person to ever put up w me

i just figured out i have a sensory disorder

and tried to tell my mom about it 

she told me it didnt sound like me at all

i quit