#5.28.15

Time succeeds,   goes on with   it’s course             with the                  stars,                    moons,                 planets --                   galaxies. Time: past,       present,    future. Time: defining,     metaphysical,       conceptual. Time is both of an          essence & of       a cycle             within the           realm of homo sapiens.

Asking questions

Going after what I wanted to see

Talking to literally anyone above me casually

Volunteering to do *anything* I hadn’t done before

Things that are hard now:

Coming up with questions because I’ve asked so many

Not offending my clinical classmates when I run away mid conversation because I see something crazy going on and I don’t want to miss a second of it

Not asking the attending to let me touch things I know I can’t (although I’ve stopped asking to watch because if you pretend like you’re supposed to be there they don’t question it)

Not copping an attitude when the lab starts arguing with me when I’ve been sent with the attending’s orders

Not laughing when above lab tech gets yelled at by said attending

Please don’t - 

leave my window or

the chiasmatic cave;

the slant has found

a home and -

the oak tree is a slave.

God is not an object,

your hair is not a crown,

Don’t continue with your tongue,

if the bottles’ bottom can’t be found.

He weeps -

he weeps -

but not because of me;

the fault is in my teeth,

and what they say

before they flee.

Most people are children,

specters of the pen,

dancing for helter skelter,

so they might die again.

The doubt -

it conquers for the

east or maybe for spring;

I know of your 

mind but not -

not what your mouth will bring.

God is not an object,

the chest is not a canvas,

I’ll see you for the climb,

but this world is not a palace.

//a.h.//

5.28.15

some more pictures from today