#clinical

[INTROSPECTION]

Inside of my dull head,

Not a rose in sight.

Trekking the steep hills,

Rowing through hurdles

Of my own design.

Slopes are few and far between,

Predictions can drastically vary,

Even if it's imaginary.

Clamped tight, it's not failing;

The seal is everlasting.

In my echoing, concave world,

Only reverberations remain...but

No truth is found within the dream.

when angel said smth abt how long until an sa victim can engage with something like that— i felt that.

angel said words i wish i could say when i wanted to engaged with it consensually again, it just made me feel ashamed. i get it the other person is afraid I'll get the wrong idea. it just sends me a flashback of what happened instead of wanting to tango. it's as if from there angel felt like worthless especially after no one cared to reach out or the bad ending.

it's also kind of sad many (fans) project onto angel and it's something not widely talked about yet it's kept like a secret. i get why angel wanted to act like it wasn't a big deal. (its almost like voicing out is such a bummer and no ones ever ready to hear it bc its a heavy topic, but for the victim it happened so casually to them- then in return they are always silenced)

but still it remains a mystery to me as to how lee is a self insert by homie. must he romantacize a savior complex towards the vulnerability of angel.

(fyi i dont actually condone homunculus, but unfortunately i liked some of his art before his original account was gone from 2023, MINUS the proshipping like actually)