#5-2-12

once i also dreamed i was invisible and reaching for something invisible but that was a while ago. i dreamed once that i was in this building, it was like a gym but had the design of a concert hall. i was chilling in there but there was something important i had to do and i was stressed about it.

Today in my 6th period class somehow the topic of anime came up. I think because I said I watched it in theatre yesterday. Anyways these two dudes who sit on each side of me chimed in and I said I brought One Piece into the conversation and surprisingly they knew what it was! So I get all excited and my friend Mario is saying Luffy right? And so I'm saying YESSS and then my other friend Ray says oh yeah Sasuke too. So I say nooo that's Naruto. And then their talking about the reindeer and I say CHOPPER! But then my history teacher tells us to stop talking and ruins the beautiful moment -____-

With a glance I can kinda tell she's bitching at me so I'm not gonna read it now. I'm too drained and I don't need other annoyances/ pain tonight.  Yet I'm tempted to read it so perhaps I will. My legs are being stupid too. I swear I have arthritis, one of the many things I need to get tested for bleh. So not looking forward to my next appointment I have to set up

POLOBxKaskade - Move for me ***Dubstep Remixx***

Recently there's been some drama and it started when this girl saw one of my text posts on here about one of her friends (And guys she really likes) and decided to tell him about it because apparently to her it seemed like I was saying something mean. However that was not the case. All I had basically said, to sum it all up, is that I was glad he had high fived me too because I had felt so invisible and it was nice to be noticed. The obvious reason I wouldn't say something like this on twitter or fb is because I don't show these kind of emotions around people I barely know, and I obviously didn't want the dude to know because it kinda made me sound pathetic. So yeah she told him and then I was on her twitter out of curiousity and saw something saying I was going after him even though he had a gf blah blah blah. She didn't use my name but it was obvious who it was about and her tweets match perfectly. That really infuriated me. First of all the kid is a freshman, I dated a freshman before and I'm not doing it again for a long time. Secondly, the kid is not to sound mean but he's not cute and lacking in the looks department. Thirdly HE HAS A GF I don't go after people are freakin taken! She always does this, she takes things the wrong way, twists the words around and makes a bigger deal out of something then it really is. It aggravates me to no end! Honestly I'm so close to just kicking her ass. I've thought about it so many times. But then I try and calm down, I reason with myself and say it wouldn't solve anything and would just make me look like a bad person, which people already think I am as it is. I have so much other stuff going on and when I found out he knew what I said on tumblr it just made me want to explode. I'm so grateful that I've had my best friend around throughout all this. If he hadn't been around idk wth I would have done.