Yeah I like to make my boys on picrew, and what?

Corporal Frist (501st) — Medic Patch (212th)

Even so I got hurt by not-certain anyone or even no one again. More like, I ‘let’ myself get hurt by them, feeling down at my own cost. They are strangers, why bother so much I know. But yeah, still. Now is the process of numb feelings. 

Yeah I don’t know. Why easily get influenced just by other judgements or casual heartless comments... Though on top of all I am indeed highly sensitive and a bit prone to depression.... But I do ‘know’ know (cognitively?) right...So I should be able to switch my mood yeah? 

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Anyway. I will be fine. Just a process. It’s gonna be okay.

I made my final decision by the way: I still take Comparative Politics seriously, let’s see if I could have readjustment to put it back my schedule again, instead of just auditing i.e. putting no responsibility for real shit. I still continue on with my Graduation Project about interviewing people (good-quality ones next time please). I still dump all job-hunting shits behind, for later, despite it’s the so-called job season, stop being swayed, I won’t go through the shukatsu pattern for sure, fuck that internship in Nadia. This last semester I’m just gonna be a real nerd. Might just keep the loose work schedule now, money is important yes, but I’m already spoiled, parents told me ‘just focus best on your study now’ I shall gladly do so. No more worries shit. I have my whole life to pay them back and treat them well, and I’m confident I can fucking do it. 

Make more friends. Even teachers say it’s so rare meeting people from all over the places here, so I should make use of this opportunity, stop being a drama queen and just go interacting more with people. Stop being a shitty ill-mannered kid. (Next time enter say ‘hi’ to everyone in the class okay?).

Voice opinions (even lame ones) more. Ask more. Be dump. Who cares. When you leave hardly people will remember your things, you remember your own things and embarrassment, just like how they’re gonna remember their own things.

Enjoy.

What’s come out from this last semester defines me.

I could already know.

So I trust it.

I’m gonna be right.