#4.1.2015

  Ich hasse Kälte.

Ich hasse Winter.

Drum Schlachtplan geschmiedet:

  …und wenige Tage später, am 4.1.2015,

sah es dann so:

ab nach Sri Lanka.

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  natürlich nicht nur für Sonne auf den Po und so…

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  nein es wurden auch Unternehmungen gestartet; hoch, runter…

  …kreuz und quer:

…aaaber das ist eine andere Geschichte.

  ääääh, Adams Peak ( Sri Pada ) …ein MUSS! – für jeden Sri Lanka -Reisenden!

Sri Lanka 4.Januar 2015 klick!

this is how you prove that you love her with construction signs that say NO ENTRY and CONDEMNED this is the only way she will understand

you do not know how to let things go

birds are made of fragile stuff : hollow bones feathers like breath even their claws are small they are sharp but they will snap and when you hold them too close they will shatter

you love too much; you love like a curse like broken mirrors she never used to be superstitious shards of glass can change a woman

she isn’t a prize, she knows this you know this but you want her gilded and she feels metal pour down her cheek, her neck, she lifts her arms in fear or victory and is frozen in gold

put her on your mantel; this is only how you love her tell her that she is beautiful tell her she is your baby your sweet, your bauble she is yours, yours, yours

it is too hard to untangle from you from your love and your traps when you rip paper from staples it leaves tears she was only ever worth anything whole and now she is partial part of her lies nestled in your heart and it is locked and rusted shut

where would she go? to a pawn shop perhaps to let herself be appraised she is not secondhand goods,

not yet

I started with half a cup of coffee and a sore throat. I’m trying to keep track of the swelling. Of my throat. I don’t want to go to a doctor who doesn’t know what I looked like in the seconds after I was born.

I’m waiting for an email. Or a call. That will tell me I haven’t gotten the job. Wasn’t even granted an interview. Even though they are just now reviewing my application.

This is what it is to know you are not good enough.

Ang araw na ito ay isang malaking joke hahahaha. Sabi ko sa sarili ko wala akong paniniwalaan sa mga post sa fb at twitter. Pero shems yung iba kasi parang kapanipaniwala haha. 

Tagged by buttercuppycake for

LIST 15 THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY AND TAG 15 PEOPLE

Arin Hanson

Dan Avidan

Markiplier

Playing board games w/ the family

chocolate

going out to eat

shopping!

getting good grades? I guess?

Ellie

making friends, internet or otherwise

painting/sculpting/drawing

making up new story ideas c:

Roosterteeth/Achievement Hunter (everything relating)

getting my sister into game kids and anime and stuff uwu

working out with my dad!

i’m going to tag gabbycakes-and-shotabooties, jekaclover (Hi!), purplegrif (We should talk sometime! c: ), thefogisrising12 (I noticed you in my tumblr feed hello friend! you are still new to my blog so shout out to you) itsthebaeshae (been a while, pal! ;) ) ray-narveaz, grootiswhatweaimfor, koragg1, dudeihavenoaccent, ryanthepsychoguy, steamygrumps, mlp-michaelvincentjones, lawnmogar, itsalsoagun, jeremy-6401